finish.me
I need you to feel this
- Jul 14, 2021
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So violently depressed. I hate that I have to wake up everyday in this body. literally opening my eyes in the morning is so fucking crushing, I can feel the weight of my skin and body and hair how disgusting I am move with gravity and im never free of this just, constant, fucking unending revulsion I feel towards myself. I've been thinking about other people. Currently living with my boyfriend and his parents, they kind of remind me of my own in the sense that they just work and clean and do more work and are fine with it. Why. Why does anyone go through life like that. How can anyone wake up in the morning and have the executive function to just fucking work. And move around and take care of their bodies. and not feel the urge to cut themselves or drink or do drugs, like what the fuck. What am I missing. What do they have in their brains that I don't fucking have. I just want to die. I just want to die now