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alwaysalmost
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- May 7, 2020
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I'm only 32 and yet so technologically incompetent wow lol. I post a lot on Reddit r/depression r/suicidewatch to vent, it really gains me nothing but some kind of outlet… idk why I do it or what I expect really… I don't want to be alive but I can't figure it out… I have no clue how people hang themsleves, how does one even make a noose? I figure I'll have to settle for some kind of poisoning but can't figure out what… I'm starting to feel increasingly desperate. Jumping off something feels out of the question. Maybe. I don't want there to be much pain but I also want to obviously be successful.
There's also the one thing stopping me and that's my dad, I don't want to put him through the pain of losing me. But if/when he's not alive all bets are off I'm ctb. If it means jumping then I guess I'll jump.
There's also the one thing stopping me and that's my dad, I don't want to put him through the pain of losing me. But if/when he's not alive all bets are off I'm ctb. If it means jumping then I guess I'll jump.