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affirmatice
Student
- Aug 31, 2024
- 148
I've always thought of myself as a good person. But I'm not really sure now.
Maybe the child deep in me is good. I think he is, but it's hard to see. Because on top of that is so much distrust, ego, vanity, fear.
So I don't know the true drive behind my actions. I often act nice, but really just a fear of upsetting others and a desire to be validated.
I am driven for self improvement, but perhaps just to feel superior to others and feel good about myself.
I judge others and myself solely on external appearances and successes.
I act somewhat confident and assured. But inside I am scared and fearful of so many things.
So I don't know if I'm a good person. I can't tell anymore because the walls and the filters on me that have formed in early childhood have changed me
Maybe the child deep in me is good. I think he is, but it's hard to see. Because on top of that is so much distrust, ego, vanity, fear.
So I don't know the true drive behind my actions. I often act nice, but really just a fear of upsetting others and a desire to be validated.
I am driven for self improvement, but perhaps just to feel superior to others and feel good about myself.
I judge others and myself solely on external appearances and successes.
I act somewhat confident and assured. But inside I am scared and fearful of so many things.
So I don't know if I'm a good person. I can't tell anymore because the walls and the filters on me that have formed in early childhood have changed me