I dont really want to die I just want everything to stop

[FireFox]

I just want everything to stop. I want the crying, constant feelings of inadequacy, anxiety and just feeling like life isn't for me. I don't want to live to see another 10 years of my life. I know had things worked in my 20s I wouldn't be planning to kill myself when I reach my 30s

 

[onthefence]

I think this is what many of us are looking for. I keep saying I just need a break from life, a week to be healthy, have time for things I enjoy (I'm not sure what), not worry about money, and not have to carry the weight of the world. I have been in this hell for 7 years and there is no end in sight except the one I am going to create myself.

 

[raskol1980]

I just want everything to stop. I want the crying, constant feelings of inadequacy, anxiety and just feeling like life isn't for me. I don't want to live to see another 10 years of my life. I know had things worked in my 20s I wouldn't be planning to kill myself when I reach my 30s

I'm not suggesting this is the answer by the way but have you tried any therapy? What country are you based in?

 

[mrelief82]

Same :( and I'm sorry you feel this way .

 

[LukaParrot]

I really recommend you to seek for help.

Prescribed drugs can help you a lot with what you are passing through life. So, you need to make a appointment with a psychiatrist.

If you are lucky, you are going to find drugs that can really help with what you described.

As a 45yo, take this as a life advice, there is still time for you, to recover, find someone, be happy but it will requires you to try.

When you realize you are too old to make your dreams come true, it's very sad and paintful, i'm not talking about being a millionare, for me what just having a person, a woman that i really loved and having a familly. It's not self-pitty... sometimes things dont go the way you want.

You're still so new and young, I really hope you can pass through this and carry on with your life.

 

[Bruce]

Prescribed drugs can help you a lot with what you are passing through life.

Parrot living on drugs is just treating the symptoms not the cause.

there is still time for you, to recover, find someone, be happy but it will requires you to try.

Bloody hell if I had a nickel for how many times I heard that..

@FireFox I'm sorry for what you're going through. You could probably find professional help, someone to talk to, it works for some. If you can't or if for whatever reason you need to talk to someone then I'm available every now and then.

 

[metothemoon]

Feeling exactly the same. Do not necessarily want to die, but just feel like living is not for me. Cannot take this any longer

 

[LukaParrot]

Parrot living on drugs is just treating the symptoms not the cause.

Did I said it will treat the cause? I said it helps, solve the cause is up to you. If you know what causes your sadnesss and depression and there is a solution, it's up to you. When the cause doesnt not have a solution, you will have to learn to live with that, and YES described drugs can help you. If they didnt work for you, try harder.

Bloody hell if I had a nickel for how many times I heard that..

I was not answering to you, she is still new and is experiencing a lot of pain losing a loved person. Take out your frustration away from here.

 

[Bruce]

Did I said it will treat the cause? I said it helps, solve the cause is up to you. If you know what causes your sadnesss and depression and there is a solution, it's up to you. When the cause doesnt not have a solution, you will have to learn to live with that, and YES described drugs can help you. If they didnt work for you, try harder.

I never said that she shouldn't try drugs, I only pointed out the obvious, which.. you seem to agree with. So then I'm not sure why you're mad at me about this one.

I was not answering to you, she is still new and is experiencing a lot of pain losing a loved person. Take out your frustration away from here.

No matter who you answer to (and remember that other people might read this as well) it's not nice to give what might very well be false hopes. You don't know the future and you don't know if that's what she wants.

Sure, I'm the frustrated one.

 

[astr4]

I was not answering to you, she is still new and is experiencing a lot of pain losing a loved person. Take out your frustration away from here.

she is not new, you are new. you have no idea how hard @FireFox has tried to be happy. your suggestions might be well intentioned but you genuinely have no idea what she's been through, telling her she's "new and young" like her age has anything to do with how much she's suffered. you can offer your empathy without trying to invalidate someone else's suffering.

If they didnt work for you, try harder.

yeah this is just a load of hot garbage. "try harder if the drugs didn't work for you".

 

[LukaParrot]

Well this is becoming a battleground and i'm not here for that.

I'm a 45yo man, frustated also, and my worst regret is for not trying harder in life. Time flies and when you see your whites hairs it's very hard to live with that. That's because i try to encourage people to try, because when is too late, it hurts a lot.

 

[Bruce]

I'm sorry if I said, say anything offensive (against anyone), I try not too. But sometimes what one needs is not more trying but maybe slowing down. Sometimes less is more.

It was better not to resist. This was his lot, and he was resigned to it.
There was a certain power in that, a freedom. The freedom of not having to care.

Stormlight Archive, Brandon Sanderson

In the book (minor spoiler) the person who says those words almost comitted suicide but before the attempt they were helped by a nice creature.

Which brings me to my second thought: sometimes what one needs in life is just a person who cares, who pats them on the back and who says "I'm here for you!". No promises of a "better" life, just, companionship.

I don't know, I hope this helps.

 

[human909]

feeling exactly the same but for me it just feels like ctbing is the only option and i kind of don't wanna recover anymore but i used to feel that way.

 

[billie]

i need everything to stop

 

[FireFox]

I really recommend you to seek for help.

Prescribed drugs can help you a lot with what you are passing through life. So, you need to make a appointment with a psychiatrist.

If you are lucky, you are going to find drugs that can really help with what you described.

As a 45yo, take this as a life advice, there is still time for you, to recover, find someone, be happy but it will requires you to try.

When you realize you are too old to make your dreams come true, it's very sad and paintful, i'm not talking about being a millionare, for me what just having a person, a woman that i really loved and having a familly. It's not self-pitty... sometimes things dont go the way you want.

You're still so new and young, I really hope you can pass through this and carry on with your life.

@LukaParrot I have gone through so much male rejection all throughout my life I now believe there is no man out there who will ever love me. The man I am currently in love with he rejected me in the most cruel way ever and it hurts so much still.

I will never meet anyone better than him that is the most painful.

Over the summer holidays this man and I began bonding more already we knew each other in the beginning of the year. One day I asked him to go with me to have coffee and told him I liked him. He agrees to go with me and 1 day before we were scheduled to have coffee he decides to reject me.

He gave me a half a page long text message reply on why he is rejecting me and telling me the reasons why I am not good enough for him. It's was painful to read.

He was close everything I ever wanted in a guy. He had many qualities i find attractive in men which are an interesting life with travel and adventure, funny, intelligent, can have long conversations with about things related to travel and politics, sweet, looks after his siblings and just someone fun to be around.

I have tried to bond with the guys at university but there is no connection and the conversation never flows. The guys here don't click with me and I don't click with them. All that makes me miss him even more. Evening time the guy and I used to talk all night when he rejected me i missed all that, evenings now are just painful.

He was close to everything I ever wanted in a man. I am more drawn to personalities.

Parrot living on drugs is just treating the symptoms not the cause.


Bloody hell if I had a nickel for how many times I heard that..

@FireFox I'm sorry for what you're going through. You could probably find professional help, someone to talk to, it works for some. If you can't or if for whatever reason you need to talk to someone then I'm available every now and then.

@Bruce Professional help is not available to be me I have tried in the past. In the UK the problem with mental health services are when you go to your local doctor and ask for help for mental health issues you DONT GET SEEN IMMEDIATELY.

How long you wait for help depends where you live. Averrage waiting times for mental health is more than 7 months that's if you can get on the list . My area its 10 months and now longer due to covid backlog. The NHS even has criteria of deciding who gets treatment since there is not enough services. People get denied access to services because they are not either ill enough or too ill to qualify for treatment.

Private healthcare options I have looked into is very expensive yes. Counselling and therapy in the UK the rates are £50 - £100 per session

therapy is NOT avaliable to me

 

[Bruce]

@Bruce Professional help is not available to be me I have tried in the past. In the UK the problem with mental health services are when you go to your local doctor and ask for help for mental health issues you DONT GET SEEN IMMEDIATELY.

How long you wait for help depends where you live. Averrage waiting times for mental health is more than 7 months that's if you can get on the list . My area its 10 months and now longer due to covid backlog. The NHS even has criteria of deciding who gets treatment since there is not enough services. People get denied access to services because they are not either ill enough or too ill to qualify for treatment.

Private healthcare options I have looked into is very expensive yes. Counselling and therapy in the UK the rates are £50 - £100 per session

therapy is NOT avaliable to me

I'm sorry that your options are .. inexistent. : (