I dont know why I'm writing this.

[Kasho]

Hey guys. I'll be short on this, i have no idea why in writing this post, i think that in writing this just to feel something different that feeling numb.
it's been some months now, i can't tell wen everything started, but i can tell when i started actually realizing that i wasn't feeling anything, this was about 6 months ago. I started feeling completely empty like I'm someone or something drained everything i could give to this world. I'm at the point now where I'm asking myself; is it worth living at this point? you know those type of question that we all asked to ourself but this thought started becoming more real everyday, i can't tell when i first had this thought but i can certainly say that my mind can't stop thinking about this.
I don't even know what i want, probably i want peace or just start to feel something other than a complete void, or probably i just want to ctb, or none of this. But i can say one thing and is that i have enough, i have enough of this, i have enough of being so emotionless, so lonely, so numb. I have enough faking who I am, i have enough of people i literally have enough.

I can't tell why I wrote this message and i Will apologize for any mistake that i might have done. Thanks for you attention.

 

[Sulyya]

I wonder what changed, 6 months ago. Anything in your life?
I get what you mean about not feeling anything. Maybe not as much as you but how the highs and lows of emotion just seem to be almost gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound really awful what you've been through and of course it's very much understandable wanting peace from the suffering that this life brings. But anyway, I wish you the best, it's undeniably such a cruel world that we exist in where people suffer all through no fault of their own.