Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
It's kind of similar to several other threads at the moment but I just felt the need to make my own. I feel like I've had enough. I don't enjoy anything, I can't sleep and if I was to die now I wouldn't miss a thing. Only problem is my girlfriend is going to be heartbroken and it breaks mine to think about it but there's nothing she can do. There's nothing anyone can do. I'm at the point I don't even know why I'm writing this at all. I want to thank SS for helping me obtain SN and that's about it. I want to hate myself for relying on parents to help me instead of doing it myself when it was so easy. So easy if you sent this device to my past self he could save himself but I can't. That's why it's so awful and why it keeps me awake. Not like I don't deserve to suffer but my girlfriend who I also don't deserve doesn't. The right thing to do is to stay alive for her but at this point that's a lot harder than dying