I dont know what to do other than waste my life lying in my bed

[Helpmeplease]

Cant even go out to buy shit to kill myself
;_; ;_;
;_; ;_;

 

[almost_dead]

me too

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Cant even go out to buy shit to kill myself
;_; ;_;
;_; ;_;

I get like this sometimes too. I've been thinking about cleaning the house for the past few hours but still haven't started moving.

 

[MariV]

Cant even go out to buy shit to kill myself
;_; ;_;
;_; ;_;

why not order online?

 

[xLosthopex]

I've been like this recently too, thankfully I have everything I need to ctb but being this severely depressed and physically unwell from my Anorexia makes getting my affairs in order seem impossible... even just tidying up, throwing away stuff etc :(

 

[Ghost2211]

why not order online?

That's what I would suggest as well.

 

[Helpmeplease]

That's what I would suggest as well.

I need to get a debit card because my mom already cancelled my previous debit card

 

[MariV]

I need to get a debit card because my mom already cancelled my previous debit card

and cant you get one?
or make a transfer?

 

[Vault of Memories]

Pretty much when I'm not at work, I'm in bed.

 

[Ghost2211]

I need to get a debit card because my mom already cancelled my previous debit card

It's wild how many people's parents here don't offer any real support, but certainly put a lot of effort into control.

 

[sadworld]

Yeah i am also just wasting my life, i'm waiting for my SN to arrive and i never thought waiting can be sooooo hard...

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I very much relate...
Have nothing to do otherwise than rotting in my bed because I am so insecure. The only thing I do is cooking for others occasionally and go out for groceries. This is now highlights of my days lol

 

[Tegan_sky]

Cant even go out to buy shit to kill myself
;_; ;_;
;_; ;_;

I'm sorry you're hurting, but you helped me just with the title of your post. I'm now doing the same, spending as much time in bed as possible, even taking sleep meds during the mid morning so I can sleep away part of the day, to kill the day and get through it. You helped me see that I'm not alone in how I feel.

 

[Squiddy]

I'm also wasting my life away and I hate it. Makes me feel like a lazy piece of shit. I would get a job, but I feel like I'd fail at it right now because of my bad articulation issues and my terrible short term memory loss issues.

 

[Helpmeplease]

Yeah. It's not like I want to be like that. Then, they would think I'm lazy or some shit. Oh and I didnt sleep the whole night lol. And then I lied and said I slept.

I'm also wasting my life away and I hate it. Makes me feel like a lazy piece of shit. I would get a job, but I feel like I'd fail at it right now because of my bad articulation issues and my terrible short term memory loss issues.

 

[Squiddy]

Yeah. It's not like I want to be like that. Then, they would think I'm lazy or some shit. Oh and I didnt sleep the whole night lol. And then I lied and said I slept.

I don't want to be like this either. It sucks.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Who says it's a waste? Maybe it's what you need at this time of your life. Maybe rest and isolation is what will calm you and keep you at peace for the time being.

I was in bed for four months last year. It was my safe space for that time.

 

[Helpmeplease]

.

It's wild how many people's parents here don't offer any real support, but certainly put a lot of effort into control.

I just got a new debit card!!! Now to add money into it lollol

 

[Disappointered]

I am also rotting from the inside out. I never leave the inside of my home anymore except when I am forced to go to the pharmacy.

 

[TooConscious]

I was the same, when I became very suicidal and lost fear of others about 18 I thought I have a pass here now to go down some paths and if I don't succeed then I can kill myself. But the thought of putting effort into anything just made me lose any motivation.

 

[blissfulbacon]

Same
I wish I had the energy to do something but all I do is lie around in bed feeling miserable about myself. I wish there was some remedy.

It's wild how many people's parents here don't offer any real support, but certainly put a lot of effort into control.

Well of this isn't the god awful truth. I wonder how many more of us would live if we had some non judgemental support.

 

[Beautifulpain]

Me too i just rot in bed all day all night

 

[Skullinthewoods]

I am also horrendously bed ridden. I'll go days without leaving bed, only getting up to go to the toilet or eat enough to continue existing. What's worse, I can't seem to do anything else. It is a living nightmare.

 

[Falseunderworld]

I hope everything works out, i understand the feeling of just being stuck in the spot, its hard to move when theres nothing worth moving for

 

[Lost Magic]

I have been bedbound with depression and anxiety for many years now. It is the only way I can deal with life until I ctb.

 

[wiltingorchid]

Same. I pretty much sleep all day. I hate that I got no motivation for anything.