I literally got bullied and scammed out of my last 4 jobs... I am a very easy person to bully. I got assaulted at one of them, had to call the police and get humiliated by WSIB and now I have to file with the HRTO which apparently can take years before I get a response. I am so exhausted because my whole resume is just landscaping and driving and since I got a ticket I can't drive for a company and I can't even think about construction because it's so cutthroat for the new guys idk maybe it's just me. Like I said, I'm small and pathetic and very easy to push around.
I have a psychology degree, so the irony isn't lost on me that I can't cure my own depression. I can't work in my field without being registered with CRPO which requires a Master's and 1000 hours or something crazy of validated client hours or something. I started playing with Tarot and that's been fun, maybe a lot of suggestibility happening in my brain because of my depression but I feel like somethings are happening. I would like to continue living but I just do not have a goddamn clue how to make money outside of construction/driving which is what I've been doing for the past 7 years but I just can't do it anymore. I feel like I can't now. I really feel like I want to die but I can't tell anyone that either.
Oh well sorry to be depressing I just really don't know what to do. I feel the need to say this just to cover my own ass spiritually but yes don't kill yourselves, killing yourself is bad etc. But I just don't know what to do anymore.
I really wish I could help myself at this time, I don't really want to die yet, I just wish I had money or a job, or a friend
I have a psychology degree, so the irony isn't lost on me that I can't cure my own depression. I can't work in my field without being registered with CRPO which requires a Master's and 1000 hours or something crazy of validated client hours or something. I started playing with Tarot and that's been fun, maybe a lot of suggestibility happening in my brain because of my depression but I feel like somethings are happening. I would like to continue living but I just do not have a goddamn clue how to make money outside of construction/driving which is what I've been doing for the past 7 years but I just can't do it anymore. I feel like I can't now. I really feel like I want to die but I can't tell anyone that either.
Oh well sorry to be depressing I just really don't know what to do. I feel the need to say this just to cover my own ass spiritually but yes don't kill yourselves, killing yourself is bad etc. But I just don't know what to do anymore.
I really wish I could help myself at this time, I don't really want to die yet, I just wish I had money or a job, or a friend
