Venting I dont know what I want anymore

[dembe]

Ive been ignoring all my friends when I can and my partner too, ive been isolating myself but I yet still i have the urge to be apart of something, to love and talk and play stupid games with people again but I always fall off when i meet new people its useless it starts to become a task to respond too often. I dont even truly know what I want in terms of social interactions. I dont know what I am doing, I dont know what to do in general, I dont know what I want in general, I am annoyed I want to just turn my brain off, I used to be able to do that with a friend of mine but we arent close anymore, I just have nothing to hang onto anymore.