Venting I don't know how to feel

[endupdead]

First of all, happy new year to everyone.

I was having a relatively calm start, so far everything was going well until I received some emails from my abuser. And shit, I hate having to talk about this but I feel like I have to do it to vent. I've already blocked his number, but he still finds a way to contact me, even through emails.

This is what he told me in the emails:

"I just wish you well, I'm sorry for everything. When I see you passing by on the streets or in my dreams, I always sigh, I was once happy, thanks to you, I was once able to feel alive, I was once able to get out of this dark place."

I think he does this to torture me, he knows I'm very emotionally unstable and he expects a response from me. I'm tired, I always feel like my blood pressure drops when he sends me a single message. I'm just going to call the prosecutor's office and ask them how my case is going. But this is a really bad start to the year.

 

[timf]

The thoughts of calling the prosecutor's office is a good move, it keeps you focused on the reality of the situation. It sounds like his words are either delusional or intentional to deceive. Either way they would be toxic at face value. If he is an abuser, he should take responsibility for his actions. If he is screwing with you to solve his legal trouble, it is reprehensible. His prosecution might be the best thing for both you and him.

 

[Mirrory Me]

Tell him he has abandonment trauma, and he tries to cope his loneliness and personal issues by sticking into you- if he needs help then he should talk to someone else. Even a chat bot is a good way to cope with it.