Venting "i don't feel safe around you"

[sweetdrowning]

had a nuclear level breakdown, attempted to ctb with many people around, and now the only person i truly care for does not feel safe around me. there is no option for me left. every single important relationship i form i destroy with the nature of what i am. i dont think i can rebuild, and i also dont think i can wait until the person i love is safe around me again. i am trying so hard, so desperately to appear that i am doing better. but it isn't helping anything. all i need to do is find a fool proof method. i can't take this any longer.

 

[greenbeans]

I know how you feel ive failed CTB and its caused some of my good friends to become scared of me. I dont think you should be trying to rebuild relationships with people who are unable to feel safe with the real you. You should try to build relationships with people who can accept who you are and yes they will still be scared but they wont let that stop them from being near you.

 

[sweetdrowning]

I know how you feel ive failed CTB and its caused some of my good friends to become scared of me. I dont think you should be trying to rebuild relationships with people who are unable to feel safe with the real you. You should try to build relationships with people who can accept who you are and yes they will still be scared but they wont let that stop them from being near you.

thanks. my circumstances kind of make it hard for me to make new friends. but with my partner... i want to be able to wait. but its too hard being alone. we live together but a lot of the time are in separate rooms all day.
I'm a failure, though, and I haven't been working or anything, so just the fact the my partner still supports me is enough I think. Like I am acting so selfishly.. this isn't about what i want. I think the only way everyone would eventually be able to be happy is if i get out of here and ctb without anyone knowing