I don’t fear death anymore

[venin.n]

I embrace it

 

[Darkover]

i embrace death it's got to be better than anything this lifetime had to offer i just hope it last for all fucking time

 

[venin.n]

i embrace death it's got to be better than anything this lifetime had to offer i just hope it last for all fucking time

For sure it will. Can I ask why are you not ctb-ing @Darkover?

 

[Darkover]

Can I ask why are you not ctb-ing @Darkover?

lack of peaceful method, but i've found one just need to get government back id so i can buy bitcoin from crypto exchange got my passport photo and a form to fill in then i can buy bitcoin to buy what i need of the darkweb

 

[venin.n]

lack of peaceful method, but i've found one just need to get government back id so i can buy bitcoin from crypto exchange got my passport photo and a form to fill in then i can buy bitcoin to buy what i need of the darkweb

I feel you. Well, glad you're finding the right one for you

 

[Vesiira]

I embrace it

Starting to feel like that too, friend.

 

[venin.n]

Starting to feel like that too, friend.

We're in this together it seems
@Vesiira, if you wanna talk on discord here is my id: nine07739

 

[tiger b]

Good for you.

 

[ABSOLUTION]

We die anyway.
All this speculation on what happens after death. But no matter what it actually will be, it will happen eventually no matter how much you love or hate your life.
What you do get to choose is when and how. (to an extent depending on your situation)
That puts me at ease every time to move forward with my objective.

 

[venin.n]

We die anyway.
All this speculation on what happens after death.
But no matter what it actually will be, you don't get a choice anyway.
What you do get to choose is when.
That puts me at ease every time.

Well stated. Me also

 

[sweetgirl666]

I embrace it

I'm very afraid, even though I really want to

 

[venin.n]

I'm very afraid, even though I really want to

I also was. Idk, maybe accept it?

Sorry for the simplistic answer

 

[sweetgirl666]

Eu também estava. Não sei, talvez aceitar?

Desculpe pela resposta simplista

I've already accepted, it's embarrassing to explain... I'm just very afraid that somehow it will be desperate, you know?

 

[venin.n]

I've already accepted, it's embarrassing to explain... I'm just very afraid that somehow it will be desperate, you know?

I'm too looking for peace and not fucking SI or other lizard brain nonsense to kick in

 

[Kundalini Guy]

That's probably the best part if you have been suicidal, you are not as fearful of death

 

[venin.n]

That's probably the best part if you have been suicidal, you are not as fearful of death

It honestly is

 

[letsmakeitagoodworl]

I've always had a massive fear of death, which is ironic as I worked in a hospice for 5 years. Despite that fear though I've kept myself often, for some years in the past, in such a compromised medical state every night I wasn't sure if wake up, I wanted to die but I was scared. There was only once I lost that fear and idk why, its so confusing to me, I tried while heartedly to die & didn't back out once I'd taken it, but the fear returned after (nothing to do with the attempt).

But this year I feel I've lost all hope, I have no one, my health is shot, I waited years for a treatment bed and by the time I got it I think I was too far gone, when I left I no longer had hope. I've never felt so empty doing some study distracted me woth it's stress this semester but the depression that never leaves was just pushed back so I could focus on study, now it's finished it's rushing back. I have no desire to live like this

 

[Lookoutbelow]

I'm very afraid, even though I really want to

Yes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never feared death itself as I believe death to be nothing more than an dreamless and eternal sleep where all is forgotten about. What I fear instead is existence, it's terrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented in this hellish reality yet one cannot suffer from the absence of everything. But anyway it must be a relief feeling in such a way.