ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,561
What's the point in waking up every morning? I've seen this same old story play out time after time, nothing ever changes, it's like watching the same movie on an endless loop.
I wake up, wish I was dead, lay there for about 15 mins, have a shower, walk to the train station, catch the train to work, work for shit money, catch the train again, walk home, get into a fight with my mother when I get home, she says something stupid like JuST bE HaPpY and then proceeds to threaten to kick me out, I get mad at her which provokes a bigger fight and then she stomps off to her room and says something stupid like I dONt LiKe YoUr AtTiTuDe, I sit in my room for a few hours looking at the roof, binge eat, binge eat, binge eat to fill in the time, take my dog for a walk, come home and cry in my room, look for somebody to talk to before once again realising that I have no friends and everyone who I once knew has abandoned me, fall to sleep and then do it all again tomorrow.
nothing ever changes, hopefully I will be able to ctb soon so that I can finally break this cycle once and for all.
I wake up, wish I was dead, lay there for about 15 mins, have a shower, walk to the train station, catch the train to work, work for shit money, catch the train again, walk home, get into a fight with my mother when I get home, she says something stupid like JuST bE HaPpY and then proceeds to threaten to kick me out, I get mad at her which provokes a bigger fight and then she stomps off to her room and says something stupid like I dONt LiKe YoUr AtTiTuDe, I sit in my room for a few hours looking at the roof, binge eat, binge eat, binge eat to fill in the time, take my dog for a walk, come home and cry in my room, look for somebody to talk to before once again realising that I have no friends and everyone who I once knew has abandoned me, fall to sleep and then do it all again tomorrow.
nothing ever changes, hopefully I will be able to ctb soon so that I can finally break this cycle once and for all.