Venting i dont even have the will to write rants here anymore

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

i desperately want to live, but my chronic illnesses make it impossible, IBS, tinnitus, and now chronic pelvic pain syndrome. i am not a human being anymore, i am like an animal stcuk in a trap.

i no longer get one moment of peace in my own body, my body is rebelling against life itself. half the functions of my body cause me pain, every second i feel the disfunction. muscles burning, back aching, bowels twisting, urethra swelling, heart breaking, mind melting

i pray every day, i dont want to die, i dont want to die, i dont want to break my family's heart

i want to marry my girlfriend and have a family, and have a nice life

but i was born broken. i am 26 years old, i should have died when i was 23 because it all went downhill from there. i cannot endure 50 more years on this earth

 

[vyvanceandvodka]

Are we the same person? I have all those illnesses as well. It's hell, I'm sorry. The pelvic dysfunction is the worst. I hope you find some type of relief soon.