Venting I don't enjoy life

[sonfecibisiklet]

First of all, i have so much going through in my mind and i dont usually write down my thoughts but i like use this website as you can write down your thoughts and nobody is judging you

i guess its because yall know that you cant judge a person before you know what the person been through and give some bs advices like "do some sport, learn hobbies"

i cant make friends because im grumpy and im grumpy because i dont have any frienda its like a paradox that i cant leave

i built walls around me since i was a child and im still socially awkward been quiet kid since highschool

have a narcissist father who thinks only himself

had some relationships that didnt work out and i regret about just one relationship that i pushed it away
i had the greatest quality time spend with my ex partner and i hate myself for not appreciating it

to remind yall im just whining about my problems and using this website as my diary or something like that but i would appreciate your any kind of comments or advices and thank you for your time reading

i think a lot of people in this website has or still experiencing loneliness in some kind and know what i feel like now

this kinda helped me to clear my mind a bit that i forgot what to write down more

anyway thank you for reading

 

[DivineSpark]

I am struggling with anhedonia, it is condition where you are unable to experience pleasure and joy in your life. Struggling everyday, no pleasure, just anxiety and anhedonia.

 

[derekWest]

I am struggling with anhedonia, it is condition where you are unable to experience pleasure and joy in your life. Struggling everyday, no pleasure, just anxiety and anhedonia.

i think i might have this fucking shit also.