
relapse
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- Mar 8, 2025
- 20
I've mastered isolating myself from other people to the point the only person I talk to is my boyfriend and even that I'm managing to self sabotage now. Yesterday I asked him why he's even with me, told him that I'm only going to hold him back long term and when he wasn't convinced enough I mentioned that I'm thinking of killing myself. Practically tried to make him break up with me just to be hit with him being very supportive, I can't help but feel guilty because I know i'm going to do it anyways.
I do love him a lot but he doesn't deserve this, I don't understand what makes it worth it for him to stay with someone like me. Maybe he feels like he can actually help me, I just hope he gets fed up with me eventually and realizes that I can't change for him or anyone else for that matter
I do love him a lot but he doesn't deserve this, I don't understand what makes it worth it for him to stay with someone like me. Maybe he feels like he can actually help me, I just hope he gets fed up with me eventually and realizes that I can't change for him or anyone else for that matter