I don’t care

[zeldalover]

I'm a mess. Nobody should care if I live or die anyways. I've had what I think to be my 12th or 13th shot of vodka tonight (5 shots after my 8 drinks tonight) and I know it's not likely but I don't care if it kills me. I just want to be done. And I know. Believe me I know I'm getting old. But I'm so painfully done that I don't care if I so happen to die tonight. I won't probably but I have no one else to talk to without somebody involuntarily hospitalizing me tonight so I want to be here. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm so fucking dramatic and annoying. But I just need to be here tonight.

 

[rosegoldmoon]

I am so sorry you're experiencing this pain right now. :(

You are not dramatic and annoying, please don't think that. I don't know if it's enough, but I care about you.

Please, if you wanna talk, message me. I am here for you, okay?

 

[undecided]

For someone who's had 13 shots of vodka, I certainly admire your typing skill.

 

[zeldalover]

For someone who's had 13 shots of vodka, I certainly admire your typing skill.

Lol I barely felt drunk for having 13 shots which is a bit concerning, I felt like I only had 4 drinks at that point but also I was mixing most of them with lemonade so it's hard to say if the hydration from that kept me a bit more sober or what.