Venting I don't belong in this world

[DeathPaloma]

I don't belong in this world, I suppose that is partly why I hate it so much. There isnt a single place I have ever felt like I belonged to, I don't understand people, and I don't think they understand me either. I have caught myself lately wondering what it means to be a human? less in a biological sense and more in and "moral" one I guess, whatever it is I suppose it is was I lack. The more surrounded by people I am, the more isolated I feel.

Detached.

I hate myself too, because I oscilate, I can't make up my mind.

Do I accept whatever the fuck I am, and live a miserable and lonely life? not caring about anyone other than myself?

Do I try to fit in? try to "get better"?

Do I just end it? no-one would miss me, I have nothing tying me to this world.

useless coward that can't decide, I don't even care, just choose.

Tired.
Failure.
Monster.
Loner.

 

[DoubleUp8]

I don't belong in this world, I suppose that is partly why I hate it so much. There isnt a single place I have ever felt like I belonged to, I don't understand people, and I don't think they understand me either. I have caught myself lately wondering what it means to be a human? less in a biological sense and more in and "moral" one I guess, whatever it is I suppose it is was I lack. The more surrounded by people I am, the more isolated I feel.

Detached.

I hate myself too, because I oscilate, I can't make up my mind.

Do I accept whatever the fuck I am, and live a miserable and lonely life? not caring about anyone other than myself?

Do I try to fit in? try to "get better"?

Do I just end it? no-one would miss me, I have nothing tying me to this world.

useless coward that can't decide, I don't even care, just choose.

Tired.
Failure.
Monster.
Loner.

Maybe monster a little harsh.
Nothing really wrong with being a loner and everyone gets tired and everyone has failed at something

 

[AndroidAmongHumans]

I really get that, that's why my profile name is "AndroidAmongHumans". I feel like humanity is all one big VIP club, and I somehow didn't get the invite, like everyone has a sense of how to relate to other people and an internal gauge of how to interact based on a situation and wether or not to trust someone, and I never got those. Sometimes I get upset about it, wishing I could for once feel like I belonged to a group, but most of the time I kind of veer into diffidence, because if humanity is all something innate and everyone's on board with the way they've set up the world and the social order, then I'm somewhat grateful to not fit into such a cruel and myopic system.

 

[DeathPaloma]

Maybe monster a little harsh.
Nothing really wrong with being a loner and everyone gets tired and everyone has failed at something

The monster... relates to shit I have done in life that I don't want to disclose, I cause deep down I don't want people to see me for the moster I am, Cause I feel like if you did see me as a monster you (as a group) wouldn't "allow me to speak...idk

 

[DoubleUp8]

I did say maybe

The monster... relates to shit I have done in life that I don't want to disclose, I cause deep down I don't want people to see me for the moster I am, Cause I feel like if you did see me as a monster you (as a group) wouldn't "allow me to speak...idk

 

[RollingGiant]

I'm suicidal for similar reasons, really sorry you're facing this