FireFox

FireFox

Enlightened
Apr 8, 2020
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Everyday i wake up feeling like i have i have no purpose, no value and nothing to live for.

As time has gone on i realise I will never find my place in the world.
When i was a student i had an identitity, purpose and a strucuture.
When i finished my exams i was extremely depressed because i didnt know what to do next.

I couldnt be happy at my own graduation ceremony. Everyone was happy and i couldnt be.

The system i knew all my life i am no longer a part of .

Being a gradaute i am living in a world of confusion
I am overqualified for supermakert work but underqualified for everything else.

Eveyday i feel like i am nothing.
I am not an employee
I am not a girlfriend to someone

I feel like an embrassment to my family even though they dont say that.

Relatives ask what job i do when they phone my house. My family cant answer. I feel like i have let everyone down.
I cant do it anymore.
I feel trapped
I am never going to be happy again.
I have the free time but extremely depressed.
I dont belong here .
I see no releif from this but to kill myself .
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
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Have you considered going to graduate school in a field that interests you, and that would lead to a career that also provided structure? Have you considered joining the military? With a degree, you would qualify to be an officer rather than enlisted.
 
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gus.nixon

and now we rise and we are everywhere
Apr 19, 2020
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Have you considered going to graduate school in a field that interests you, and that would lead to a career that also provided structure? Have you considered joining the military? With a degree, you would qualify to be an officer rather than enlisted.
I was just thinking the same thing. You could go back to school and get more education. If you chose, you could stay in the school environment for the rest of your life as a teacher or professor. "Professor Firefox" has a nice ring to it :heart:
 
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FireFox

FireFox

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Apr 8, 2020
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Have you considered going to graduate school in a field that interests you, and that would lead to a career that also provided structure? Have you considered joining the military? With a degree, you would qualify to be an officer rather than enlisted.
Gradaute school: i fear graduting again and not being cope with. I felt extremely depressed about greaduting.

I worry about having 2 degrees as employers value experience more.
I feel very insecure never having a job.
I dont know what course to do.

I dont know what career i want. It is so awful and biggest source of misery in my life

I felt like everything has to be pefect after i gradaute. I am angry everything i a mess.
I was just thinking the same thing. You could go back to school and get more education. If you chose, you could stay in the school environment for the rest of your life as a teacher or professor. "Professor Firefox" has a nice ring to it :heart:
I dont enjoy teaching at all see
 
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AcornUnderground

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Feb 28, 2020
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To kill yourself would be a tragedy. Life is just beginning for you. The virus has made this a bit harder. You will find a job. You can find a boyfriend. I'd suggest searching for remote work right now, though the job market will suck for awhile. But after this pandemic, there will be a surge in remote work as people have discovered how easy and cost effective it is to do so. Some of your work challenges seem to be that you don't work with people very well. Perhaps remote work and consider joining interest groups for social purposes to feel more comfortable with people, then reassess the job situation . Young professional networking groups, any hobby that interests you or hell make yourself try one. I made friends by doing exercise classes at the gym.
 
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