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grosz
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- Sep 30, 2022
- 29
As the title says, I do not know when I should kill myself. I have everything ready already. Got my SN, tested it out to see if it works, I can do it in any moment I want, alas I do not know when to do it.
I still feel like something big may happen that will change my life, that it will make it better, but I know that nothing like this will ever occur. Yet, I am still here waiting for something to happen, I just cannot grasp that I can kill myself and end this misery, I just feel like I am not ready for it and will not ever be, although I want to do this so much that it is unreal. I feel like I must do it, but my guts are telling me that something big will happen and everything will change for better, I guess hope is now my only and my biggest enemy.
Does any of you feel the same? I cant be alone with this situation.
I still feel like something big may happen that will change my life, that it will make it better, but I know that nothing like this will ever occur. Yet, I am still here waiting for something to happen, I just cannot grasp that I can kill myself and end this misery, I just feel like I am not ready for it and will not ever be, although I want to do this so much that it is unreal. I feel like I must do it, but my guts are telling me that something big will happen and everything will change for better, I guess hope is now my only and my biggest enemy.
Does any of you feel the same? I cant be alone with this situation.