i died and was brought back

[nembutal]

i relapsed on heroin in my friends room. tested it for fent, positive, did it anyway. he revived me with the narcan i placed on the counter the night before. last narcan in the house had to dig through shit to find it. just had a feeling.

im back due to unrequited love destroying my self worth yet again (^ guy who revived me lo and behold) and family issues. moms is kicking me out for the 15th time this year. might go to a psych ward for a while and go afk to scare her a bit. she's been stealing my shit and throwing clothing she doesn't like me wearing out. im writing a note. linking acc to it. fuck this.

 

[sugarh1gh]

Sorry you have to go through that.
15 times though. Why don't you just move out and get your own place if she is constantly doing that. I would be so anxious and annoyed.

 

[Kusogaki]

sounds rough, truly sorry. I don't quite understand though why would you purposely put the narcan out when you are actively trying to CTB why give yourself a back out? Defeats the purpose of the laced heroin.

 

[lost_ange2211]

Oh that is bad, hope you can recover from it.
But why would you place the narcan in the room you are doing it in? And let alone have your friend around, to revive you? I am a bit confused here.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. But seriously - r u really wanting to die when attempting when people are close that can rescue you? I really hope you can recover quickly and you find a better way out than CTB, failing is so agonizing. I wish you all the best with whatever you decide to do.