foreverbroken28
I've gone off the deep end.
- Jul 11, 2019
- 124
I have mental problems that have caused me too much heartache for way too long. BPD is an incurable disease that eats away at you, slowly through the years without treatment.
If the world were caring enough, proper therapy would not be so expensive. I cannot afford any mental health assistance.
For 2 years, I have had to deal with an intense heartbreak and I cannot go on like this. I attempted to CTB when I was 13 and ever since, I've been told "Things get better."
Ages later, it has become clear to me that sometimes they don't. I am tired, overwhelmed, and my soul has turned completely blue.
People try to make me feel guilty or dumb for my problems but I did not ask for this. I did not ask to have a mental problem that makes me feel too intensely.
I did not ask to have abandonment issues. I didn't ask to be abused as a kid. I didn't ask to be here on this planet.
I am tired of crying in the middle of the night..yet I cannot stop. I can't seem to shake this antagonizing feeling from my heart and I did not ask for it.
didn't ask for any this shit. None of us did. If I could snap my fingers and take myself back to childhood to fix my issues, I would catch myself..but time travel does not exist as of yet. It is only a fairytale for now.
I have no choice but to get away. I am tired. That is all.
If the world were caring enough, proper therapy would not be so expensive. I cannot afford any mental health assistance.
For 2 years, I have had to deal with an intense heartbreak and I cannot go on like this. I attempted to CTB when I was 13 and ever since, I've been told "Things get better."
Ages later, it has become clear to me that sometimes they don't. I am tired, overwhelmed, and my soul has turned completely blue.
People try to make me feel guilty or dumb for my problems but I did not ask for this. I did not ask to have a mental problem that makes me feel too intensely.
I did not ask to have abandonment issues. I didn't ask to be abused as a kid. I didn't ask to be here on this planet.
I am tired of crying in the middle of the night..yet I cannot stop. I can't seem to shake this antagonizing feeling from my heart and I did not ask for it.
didn't ask for any this shit. None of us did. If I could snap my fingers and take myself back to childhood to fix my issues, I would catch myself..but time travel does not exist as of yet. It is only a fairytale for now.
I have no choice but to get away. I am tired. That is all.