Flau
i'm so done lmao
- Dec 30, 2019
- 75
So in short... Recently I wanted to die more than ever, I suppose.
Plenty of things happened but I'm not going to number them now otherwise this topic will turn into an angst book.
I saw myself in the mirror in a very ugly form. A couple of days ago.
Decided to step on a weight scale and understood that I'm 96,5kg. Even tho my body looks like 75-80 or something
Stretch marks all over the body, double chin, fat sides and legs. Cannot even fit anything.
So I gave up on eating at all. I don't get to usually eat in my family anyway. Once a day would be great but sometimes I get nothing. Yet still with my disfunctioned thyroid and metabolism I collect every bite into fat. I genuinely tried to exercise, numbers of diets and even medication. Nothing ever helped. Even my "tries" lasted for years. My entire body was in holes from syringes and... pills. 23 pills a day to get my health in a normal state at least.
I got tired of myself. I get bullied every god damn day. People give me looks.
So I just decided to attempt a water diet. To starve for 15 days at least and just drink water. I heard people lost their weight in these days really dramatically.
From 13 jan 2020 I officially told myself I'm going to do this.
Today is 15th pf jan. 6pm. Im going back home and it's the 3rd day of me living without food.
So far I'm 95,3kg right now.
I would really appreciate your support because for me, a person who doesn't get to eat often for like 3-4 years already (and when I get I just eat junk. Potatoes, macaroni, all that heavy but cheap food that makes me fat)
I will keep this topic in check. So you guys can see my results and help me to go through this.
If I will eventually die from it... not a big deal. At least I will die being beautiful, rather than live a live in a disgusting fat body. Just my opinion tho. I don't have a fat fobia, I'm not a fat hater when it comes to others, but it bothers my body personally, so yeah. Good luck to me.
Plenty of things happened but I'm not going to number them now otherwise this topic will turn into an angst book.
I saw myself in the mirror in a very ugly form. A couple of days ago.
Decided to step on a weight scale and understood that I'm 96,5kg. Even tho my body looks like 75-80 or something
Stretch marks all over the body, double chin, fat sides and legs. Cannot even fit anything.
So I gave up on eating at all. I don't get to usually eat in my family anyway. Once a day would be great but sometimes I get nothing. Yet still with my disfunctioned thyroid and metabolism I collect every bite into fat. I genuinely tried to exercise, numbers of diets and even medication. Nothing ever helped. Even my "tries" lasted for years. My entire body was in holes from syringes and... pills. 23 pills a day to get my health in a normal state at least.
I got tired of myself. I get bullied every god damn day. People give me looks.
So I just decided to attempt a water diet. To starve for 15 days at least and just drink water. I heard people lost their weight in these days really dramatically.
From 13 jan 2020 I officially told myself I'm going to do this.
Today is 15th pf jan. 6pm. Im going back home and it's the 3rd day of me living without food.
So far I'm 95,3kg right now.
I would really appreciate your support because for me, a person who doesn't get to eat often for like 3-4 years already (and when I get I just eat junk. Potatoes, macaroni, all that heavy but cheap food that makes me fat)
I will keep this topic in check. So you guys can see my results and help me to go through this.
If I will eventually die from it... not a big deal. At least I will die being beautiful, rather than live a live in a disgusting fat body. Just my opinion tho. I don't have a fat fobia, I'm not a fat hater when it comes to others, but it bothers my body personally, so yeah. Good luck to me.