Venting I couldn't do it

[AnonymousL]

I waited the 8 hours as recommended.
I threw all the shit away I didn't want anyone to find.
I had the water , SN, Meto, painkillers, my notes , pictures of my loved ones ,..

But by the time to do it , SI kicked in and I couldn't even drink it.

I just want this misery to end.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry SI is such a big problem and SI is so strong. Don't be too hard to yourself, reflect on you and your decision, eventually you will find the strength you need.

 

[crystal_meth97]

I'm sorry for your experience, SI can be a bitch. It was the same for me with hanging, several years ago. And I'm afraid it'll be the same with SN for me when the time comes. I hope you can find the peace you're looking for no matter what you choose. Take it easy, I can only imagine how frustrating it is.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Nothing wrong with that. You weren't ready. You may never be ready. I hope things get better for you. I've been wanting to get sn if you want to PM me. Maybe you'll get relief in knowing that you very well could of ctb but walked away. It could strengthen you rather than weaken your spirit in the will to live.