I Choose Life.

[migimortis]

When I joined this site, I had a plan. I told myself I would kill myself within 30 days. I didn't want to be endlessly stuck contemplating suicide, abusing drugs and doing nothing about it, watching my life pass before my eyes. I've already done enough of that. I have no house, no car, no IRL friends or relationships, no money, no career nothing. I could be homeless soon too. I've wasted a significant part of my life. I refused to waste anymore.

If I didn't die within 30 days, I would commit to recovery. I'm now on day 31.

I'm sticking to the plan.

I Choose Life.

 

[Ambivalent1]

"Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suit on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life…"

-Trainspotting (movie)

Choosing life isnt bad. It just reminded me of this monologue from a movie.

Sequel monologue. I don't think it's as good.

"Choose life
Choose Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and hope that someone, somewhere cares
Choose looking up old flames, wishing you'd done it all differently
And choose watching history repeat itself
Choose your future
Choose reality TV, slut shaming, revenge porn
Choose a zero hour contract, a two hour journey to work
And choose the same for your kids, only worse, and smother the pain with an unknown dose of an unknown drug made in somebody's kitchen
And then… take a deep breath
You're an addict, so be addicted
Just be addicted to something else
Choose the ones you love
Choose your future
Choose life"

 

[migimortis]

"Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suit on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life…"

-Trainspotting (movie)

How amusing.

 

[UnrepentantSunrise]

I respect the fuck out of you bro you made a commitment and you're keeping to it

 

[Slow_Farewell]

Wish you the best on your journey and for what it's worth, sticking to the plan is always a good idea, specially if it's your plan.

 

[SeaBreeze]

I like your idea and the changes you made to the plan. I'm in a somewhat similar situation with choices being made, still appreciating life . Positive outlook is what I still enjoy the most.
Have a great life

 

[Myforevercharlie]

That's awesome to read! Wishing you nothing but love and strength on your to recovery

 

[kawaiiphantom]

When I joined this site, I had a plan. I told myself I would kill myself within 30 days. I didn't want to be endlessly stuck contemplating suicide, abusing drugs and doing nothing about it, watching my life pass before my eyes. I've already done enough of that. I have no house, no car, no IRL friends or relationships, no money, no career nothing. I could be homeless soon too. I've wasted a significant part of my life. I refused to waste anymore.

If I didn't die within 30 days, I would commit to recovery. I'm now on day 31.

I'm sticking to the plan.

I Choose Life.

PROUD OF U DUDE !!!!

 

[Katdogg]

Are you going to reach out for help?

When I hit bottom (true homelessness) I had family to lean on.

Sounds like you are ready for change. As an internet stranger I am wishing you the best of luck. :)

 

[cetacea]

Thank you for committing to life. Yours is precious. You can do this

 

[celestialsloth]

When I joined this site, I had a plan. I told myself I would kill myself within 30 days. I didn't want to be endlessly stuck contemplating suicide, abusing drugs and doing nothing about it, watching my life pass before my eyes. I've already done enough of that. I have no house, no car, no IRL friends or relationships, no money, no career nothing. I could be homeless soon too. I've wasted a significant part of my life. I refused to waste anymore.

If I didn't die within 30 days,

I wish you all the strength and courage to stick with your choice

 

[corvidaee]

There is strength to commitment. Your choice is invaluable. It is yours and no one else's. I respect your choice to keep on going.

 

[CuriosityAndCat]

Rooting for you! Is there certain thoughts or likes that youre avoiding that turned you to drugs?