astrichaoz
And if I were someone else, would this be easier?
- Apr 15, 2024
- 44
I'm so sick and tired of being here. I'm so fucking stupid and I don't know how to do anything right. Currently sobbing in my math class because of how much of an idiot I am. I'm hideous and I'm just wasting oxygen by being here. Everyone treats me like I'm a freak and everyone in my life fucking hates me and wants me dead. I can never form any real or strong connections and it's hard for me to consider people friends. The people that I did have left me. Which I understand because I'm exhausting to be around. I'm just so done but I can't even do anything until I move out for dorms and its slowly killing me I want to go now I can't stand it anymore I don't know who I am anymore or how I feel. I don't know. I'm just spiraling rn and needed to vent. I can't wait to be able to be at peace. It'll come soon enough, I just need to wait but I'm so fucking tired of waiting.
