Hey there. I know what it's like to be at this low, and I am so, so sorry that you've reached this point. No one should ever reach this place. It's a complete hell when you're burning and there's no way to escape. The solutions and the incoming problems demand so much from you. I haven't looked into any OD methods, mostly because of the amount of people who've failed. Don't let that deter you, but whatever you do, please don't be motivated to do it solely on caprice. I get that you're walking on hot coals and you want out; however, leaping off them without any thought can put you in a really bad place. Obviously, I don't know you, nor do I know how to help you. If you can, just let all the emotions out. Find a quiet place, and just do whatever you need to do to express yourself. Let yourself think without judging yourself or remembering the judgment from others, if any. If you're into music, I know a few good songs to abate the melancholy: Grace and the Sky is a Landfill by Jeff Buckley, Down by Lindisfarne, Pleasure Street by Tim Buckley, Concrete Girl by Switchfoot, Say Hello to Heaven by Temple of the Dog, Wots... Uh the Deal by Pink Floyd, One More Suicide by Marcy Playground, and probably the one I've relied the most on, Knockin' On Heaven's Door. Music helps me take the burdens off and unpack them. I hope you find some way to allay the anxieties and sadness, and I hope you can find some peace, even if only for a few hours. Please take care of yourself, and don't be hard on yourself. You're deserving of happiness and freedom. I hope you find them.