I can't take much more

[Danby]

Financial problems are just killing me. It's the number one cause of my stress and anxiety and depression--it's all a vicious circle. If I could solve the financial problems I probably wouldn't want to ctb. But nothing's working. Medical bills, credit card bills, my daughter's college tuition, the mortgage, . . . and then having enough left after to keep the lights on, the water running, and food on the table. I try to juggle things, but it's not working. I can't take much more. Meeting with my soon-to-be ex wife about our finances this afternoon, and not at all looking forward to that. Depending on how it goes, today may be the day I finally order the shotgun and shells and start the ctb countdown. But I'm not sure I can wait that long. Oh how I wished I lived in a more gun-friendly state--I could go into a fucking Walmart and be good to go. Might try the night-night method again, this time with socks, if I can't wait for the gun to get here.

 

[spottem]

Bankruptcy?

 

[whaleandwasp]

Financial problems are just killing me. It's the number one cause of my stress and anxiety and depression--it's all a vicious circle. If I could solve the financial problems I probably wouldn't want to ctb. But nothing's working. Medical bills, credit card bills, my daughter's college tuition, the mortgage, . . . and then having enough left after to keep the lights on, the water running, and food on the table. I try to juggle things, but it's not working. I can't take much more. Meeting with my soon-to-be ex wife about our finances this afternoon, and not at all looking forward to that. Depending on how it goes, today may be the day I finally order the shotgun and shells and start the ctb countdown. But I'm not sure I can wait that long. Oh how I wished I lived in a more gun-friendly state--I could go into a fucking Walmart and be good to go. Might try the night-night method again, this time with socks, if I can't wait for the gun to get here.

A llllllot of issues could be solved with money because I am struggling too man. Can't see a doctor, my knee is going out and I'm having some major medical issues. I have only been to the dentist one time in the past two decades, my teeth hurt and I need a lot of work. Then there is the bills, food, utilities, I have 150K in student loans, I don't make jack shit for pay. I haven't been on a vacation of any kind since I was a kid. I do live in probably the most gun friendly state in the union, but that's not my preferred method. If I could just get a financial windfall and see the doctor, dentist, get into therapy, buy a good vehicle and a home, and can just fucking breathe for once -- I think my mental health would improve significantly. I think that's true for a lot of people, actually..this capitalistic hellscape tells us to shut up and work like slaves, and to stay poor, stay hidden, and die silently.

 

[FuneralCry]

I imagine that must be really tiring and dreadful, but anyway I wish you all the best in whatever happens.