Tired Nacho
Member
- Apr 30, 2021
- 26
I don't think I can take it much longer, I don't feel like my live as any sort of importance anymore, no one cares about me, those who I thought were my friends don't really seem like friends to me, nothing I do gives me any joy anymore playing games, reading watching movies, series , anime.
All I do everyday is listen to music whenever I can, I can't even sleep well because I am constantly thinking about everything. I don't have anyone that is willing to help me, during lunch some time ago spoke about how I was to a friend and nothing happened it was as if I said something irrelevant "I literally said I've been thinking of ending it all" and the response was basically "aw shucks ANYWAYS did you know that....".
I have no mother, my father went to "buy milk" some years ago, I am currently living with my aunt so I don't really have that weight oh but my family would miss me. No one asks how I am feeling, I can pretty much disappear and no one would even notice, seeing all my "friends" happy and living their best lifes with loving families and even boyfriends/girlfriends only makes me feel worse.
I was feeling terrible arround my birthday at the end of april and found this forum but after some days I had my mind occupied with other stuff and was okayish until now.
I've been thinking of using the SN method but I don't realy think I can get it easily here in Portugal.
Does anyone have any tips on how I can feel better, I don't know what to do anymore
Sorry if my english isn't good I am not native and how I am right now I can't even think properly
edit: oops I published this while I was writing, what the hell did I do?
All I do everyday is listen to music whenever I can, I can't even sleep well because I am constantly thinking about everything. I don't have anyone that is willing to help me, during lunch some time ago spoke about how I was to a friend and nothing happened it was as if I said something irrelevant "I literally said I've been thinking of ending it all" and the response was basically "aw shucks ANYWAYS did you know that....".
I have no mother, my father went to "buy milk" some years ago, I am currently living with my aunt so I don't really have that weight oh but my family would miss me. No one asks how I am feeling, I can pretty much disappear and no one would even notice, seeing all my "friends" happy and living their best lifes with loving families and even boyfriends/girlfriends only makes me feel worse.
I was feeling terrible arround my birthday at the end of april and found this forum but after some days I had my mind occupied with other stuff and was okayish until now.
I've been thinking of using the SN method but I don't realy think I can get it easily here in Portugal.
Does anyone have any tips on how I can feel better, I don't know what to do anymore
Sorry if my english isn't good I am not native and how I am right now I can't even think properly
edit: oops I published this while I was writing, what the hell did I do?
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