i cant take it anymore

[forfever]

the pain i feel is much worse than death
these holidays are going to be rough

 

[ForeverLonely82]

The holidays are indeed the worst time. I envy people that have places to go, people to see and enjoy the holiday cheer. I feel none of that and haven't for some time. I hate seeing the Christmas lights, I hate hearing the Christmas music and it just enforces me to want to disappear. There is no holiday I enjoy Sure I did in the past when my family was together and I actually had people that loved me But those days are over. So I can relate to you in some way. I would say I hope you find peace with it and not hurt inside but I think we both know that is impossible.

 

[Kazu Ha]

Yea, Christmas and New Year's Eve are always torture for me. I don't really feel like celebrating Christmas with my family anymore, and I'm usually alone on New Year's Eve, even though I'd like to do something.

Last year, I was lucky and was invited to spend New Year's Eve with my best friend and his family so that I wouldn't be so alone.
This year, everything is back to normal and I'm all alone because my best friend left me.

I just hate being on this world.

 

[suicidesergal]

Your feelings are valid, and it's okay to feel the way you do. What can you do to help yourself not feel alone?

 

[forfever]

Your feelings are valid, and it's okay to feel the way you do. What can you do to help yourself not feel alone?

honestly holidays are usually good for me. my family is distant and most have erased themselves form the situation, but there's a group of 4 family members who are still with me. basically christmas was ok, the anticipation wasnt. i still don't know how i'll spend new years. thanks for asking

Your feelings are valid, and it's okay to feel the way you do. What can you do to help yourself not feel alone?

Your feelings are valid, and it's okay to feel the way you do. What can you do to help yourself not feel alone?

honestly holidays are usually good for me. my family is distant and most have erased themselves form the situation, but there's a group of 4 family members who are still with me. basically christmas was ok, the anticipation wasnt. i still don't know how i'll spend new years. thanks for asking

sorry i messed up the reply thing