I can’t stop with the bad daydreaming anymore

[trying ungracefully]

I don't know if it's considered daydreaming or intrusive thoughts but I keep imagining horrible things happening to my loved ones. Once I noticed I have been doing it it's caused nothing but stress because I don't want to be thinking this type of stuff, I don't want to imagine my brother burned alive in a fire it's terrible and causes me to cry thinking about this type of stuff. And now that I'm thinking, neither me nor my brother have smoke alarms on our rooms and we share the attic. I need to get on that.

It makes me feel like it might happen too with me imagining it so much. I also get the thoughts of my boyfriend dying in a car crash because he Ubers so he is driving a lot and even going out of state sometimes when the pay is good so I wouldn't be able to get to him because I don't drive and I wouldn't have the money to pay for an uber and I don't know if my parents would drive me. I get so annoying sometimes because if I check his location and see he's stopped for a while I panic a bit thinking he's in a crash. It happened once actually, he rear ended someone and he almost got arrested because the cop couldn't find his name in the system for a while and I didn't even know until he was out of the cop car. It's so scary.

I'm going to bring this up to my therapist to see if she knows ways to deal with this better. I can't keep going with this stress and being out of reality so much, constantly imagining horrible things happening to people I care about and thinking it's a sign or I'll manifest it into existence.

 

[MapleS]

just wanna say that thoughts are involuntary and thoughts you experience, experience a lot people with anxiety/stressed
and the more you think about them to dissapear the more they will occure sadly
It's easy to say but you need to accept them

and remember these thoughts mean NOTHING
they exist because your mind is stressed and needs to cope with reality... in the very unhealthy way


It'a a good idea to bring this to therapy as I can be wrong

 

[sleepingrabbit]

Have you ever looked up OCD? A lot of people think it's based in being a neat freak / cleaning, but it's actually focused around intrusive thoughts and the things ("rituals") someone does to self soothe over them.

Maybe bring it up to your therapist.

 

[trying ungracefully]

Have you ever looked up OCD? A lot of people think it's based in being a neat freak / cleaning, but it's actually focused around intrusive thoughts and the things ("rituals") someone does to self soothe over them.

Maybe bring it up to your therapist.

I've thought of it but I feel like I'm being a hypochondriac now because I'm in an exposure group with mainly people with OCD lol