I can't stop thinking about ctb

[meltskelt]

For weeks I've been thinking that I already have enough money to buy SN and could end things right now, it is making me go insane. I'm finally in college and still I'm at my worst... I keep doing SH and everyday I ask myself " why are you alive? Why do you keep going?" - It is terrible. I think I'm not going to survive much longer

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm also always just wishing to be gone, I understand that it's so dreadful suffering in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[meltskelt]

I'm also always just wishing to be gone, I understand that it's so dreadful suffering in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best.

It is so hard to actually do something, u know?