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KanyePepper
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- Oct 1, 2019
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I'll try to make a long story short. I was with a woman for 4.5 years. She cheated on me and left me. Bad, messy breakup. I was and still am in love with her. I know people have worse problems but this has caused the worst depression of my life. She ended up putting a no contact order on me even though she was the one being horrible about it and being super manipulative.
2 months pass, I have been good and not contacted her. I get a phone call from her saying she dropped the no contact order, she tells me she wants to be my friend still and is seeing someone else. Totally fucking fucks up all the healing I've tried to do. We agree not to talk to each other but occasionally I break down and send her some stupid message. I called her once and her new boyfriend answers and that completely destroyed me.
I gave her my old computer while we were together but she left it here and she left all of her stuff logged into it. She has no idea that I can read her emails, Facebook, all her dating sites, I could even check her bank account if I wanted.
So basically I'm a crazy stalker then right? I am not doing anything malicious with this information, I'm just letting myself get hurt more and more by all the stuff I keep finding and reading. But I literally can not stop myself! I need to just destroy this stupid computer and forget every password of hers I know but I feel powerless to stop it.
I guess this is a longer post than I intended. Having a really hard time and not sure if everyone will just thing I'm nuts for doing this kinda shit, but I don't know what to do anymore. :(
Also, I apologize if I posted this in the wrong section. Still pretty new and I realized this after I posted.
2 months pass, I have been good and not contacted her. I get a phone call from her saying she dropped the no contact order, she tells me she wants to be my friend still and is seeing someone else. Totally fucking fucks up all the healing I've tried to do. We agree not to talk to each other but occasionally I break down and send her some stupid message. I called her once and her new boyfriend answers and that completely destroyed me.
I gave her my old computer while we were together but she left it here and she left all of her stuff logged into it. She has no idea that I can read her emails, Facebook, all her dating sites, I could even check her bank account if I wanted.
So basically I'm a crazy stalker then right? I am not doing anything malicious with this information, I'm just letting myself get hurt more and more by all the stuff I keep finding and reading. But I literally can not stop myself! I need to just destroy this stupid computer and forget every password of hers I know but I feel powerless to stop it.
I guess this is a longer post than I intended. Having a really hard time and not sure if everyone will just thing I'm nuts for doing this kinda shit, but I don't know what to do anymore. :(
Also, I apologize if I posted this in the wrong section. Still pretty new and I realized this after I posted.
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