Venting I can’t stop crying.

[Deleted member 10475]

Every day for the past two weeks, I've just been crying non-stop. I cry myself to sleep and then when I wake, I start it all over again because I can't believe I have to go through another day of the same nightmare.

Mainly at this point, I'm just tired of people hurting me. I'm tired of being lied to, I'm tired of being discarded like trash. There's a part of me that feels like I deserve so much more, but life reminds me in some way, through someone, that I don't matter.

Just venting because I'm just so tired of this. I've been taking my insomnia meds throughout the day just so I can be asleep.

 

[chokeme]

Sleep is a beautiful escape. I don't blame you if that's what you choose to do. I have slept away years of my life. Its the easiest relief other than CTB

 

[Deleted member 10475]

Sleep is a beautiful escape. I don't blame you if that's what you choose to do. I have slept away years of my life. Its the easiest relief other than CTB

It's the only time I ever really feel peace. I have lucid dreams, so I make sure to read before sleeping, so that way I'm in that book when I'm not awake. I just hate waking up.

 

[Lilmeowssi]

Every day for the past two weeks, I've just been crying non-stop. I cry myself to sleep and then when I wake, I start it all over again because I can't believe I have to go through another day of the same nightmare.

Mainly at this point, I'm just tired of people hurting me. I'm tired of being lied to, I'm tired of being discarded like trash. There's a part of me that feels like I deserve so much more, but life reminds me in some way, through someone, that I don't matter.

Just venting because I'm just so tired of this. I've been taking my insomnia meds throughout the day just so I can be asleep.

Reading this feels so relatable.
I am sorry you're going through this and constantly feeling this awful. I hope you find your peace wether it's in death or something else.
Sending you loaaaaaads of hugs
ily

 

[kokporn]

I understand you. I felt the same a month ago

 

[KleinerWolf]

Every day for the past two weeks, I've just been crying non-stop. I cry myself to sleep and then when I wake, I start it all over again because I can't believe I have to go through another day of the same nightmare.

Mainly at this point, I'm just tired of people hurting me. I'm tired of being lied to, I'm tired of being discarded like trash. There's a part of me that feels like I deserve so much more, but life reminds me in some way, through someone, that I don't matter.

Just venting because I'm just so tired of this. I've been taking my insomnia meds throughout the day just so I can be asleep.

I'm sure you will manage to pull through.
It sounds like you are under a lot of stress and I too think it's understandable you find relief by having a nap.

Lucid dream fascinates me but I'm too much a beginner and cant do it. lol
Hopefully I can get the hang of it overtime...

Despite knowing how hard life is, and the many turmoils it can toss us,
I hope you will become the master at managing your own emotions
and be able to find periods of much needed calmness during the thunderstorm that life is.

Please remind yourself that you are not alone.
*Sending hugs and love your way*

 

[Oyoy]

When I am depressed I find myself laughing harder when I find something funny. I hope you find something hilarious to enjoy the ups and not just the down.