I can't pick

[snowsun1970]

I do not know what to do with myself. Truly I do not want to ctb, but I do want to stop feeling pain. I want to not feel anything anymore, but still be in my mortal shell. Truly, I don't want to ruin my girlfriend's life with my own selfishness.

 

[ilovecats]

I don't know how to help but I can recommend talking to someone close to you, preferably your parents. There's nothing wrong in asking for help, not even as a man.

 

[snowsun1970]

I don't know how to help but I can recommend talking to someone close to you, preferably your parents. There's nothing wrong in asking for help, not even as a man.

currently seeing a therapist, she's a piece of shit, ty though dude

 

[GasMonkey]

Truly I do not want to ctb, but I do want to stop feeling pain.

Yeah that happens to a lot of folks.
Unfortunately in my case the only way to stop the pain is by CTBing, but not all cases are similar.

 

[ilovecats]

currently seeing a therapist, she's a piece of shit,

Then try somewhere else. Sure you can find a good therapist, but if you really can't then, as I said before, talk to someone close. The support from others can be enough in some cases.

 

[FuneralCry]

After all, I believe that only you can decide what is best for yourself, but it does sound like a difficult situation to be in, and it's really understandable wishing to be free from pain, but the unfortunate reality is that existing is something that is painful. I do believe that there is no real relief from suffering as long as one stays here but anyway I wish you the best of luck.