Amira
Student
- Nov 15, 2018
- 180
I tried yesterday to do partial hanging with a strong scarf but I couldn't blackout , my head just felt heavy and mouth felt tingly. No dizzness or blackout. I have to go before December and I don't know what to do.
I am really upset and heartbroken that I couldn't simply get my self to blackout. I tried pressing around my neck and tried to find sweet spot. But I can't find it. I am pretty short and small. I weigh about 48 to 50kg. But it's either I have an abnormal fat neck or life doesn't want me to stop suffering.
I looked other Ctbs by hanging and now I feel suspicious if they actually died that way. Especially Korean celebrities who died by suicide hanged themselves with a scarf , a electric cord, cable charger , a towel or rope.
How the fuck do other people CTB by scarfs or ropes? I felt sure that it may work for me.Gosh I feel like a failure. I am so scared to fail again. I really wish I could get my hands on N. I need some advice on what I should try for partial? I live in the most busiest city and I can't simply jump off a bridge without being saved or find a forest where I can hang myself. I can't travel cuz I live with my mom and she would freak out. Partial is sadly my only option.
I am really upset and heartbroken that I couldn't simply get my self to blackout. I tried pressing around my neck and tried to find sweet spot. But I can't find it. I am pretty short and small. I weigh about 48 to 50kg. But it's either I have an abnormal fat neck or life doesn't want me to stop suffering.
I looked other Ctbs by hanging and now I feel suspicious if they actually died that way. Especially Korean celebrities who died by suicide hanged themselves with a scarf , a electric cord, cable charger , a towel or rope.
How the fuck do other people CTB by scarfs or ropes? I felt sure that it may work for me.Gosh I feel like a failure. I am so scared to fail again. I really wish I could get my hands on N. I need some advice on what I should try for partial? I live in the most busiest city and I can't simply jump off a bridge without being saved or find a forest where I can hang myself. I can't travel cuz I live with my mom and she would freak out. Partial is sadly my only option.
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