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toxicjester
The world’s worst jester
- Dec 11, 2023
- 13
My gf is never going to be happy with how she looks, and I can't help her with that. She's trans and started transitioning around 4 years ago and according to her, hasn't gotten anywhere with it. While I can see that her body doesn't look like a fucking supermodel body big chest and ass, I think the weight distribution has gotten slightly better, and a lot of the time she can dress herself in a way that hides the shit she doesn't like and gives off the illusion of other features that she otherwise doesn't have. She also does her makeup really well and it honestly baffles me a lot of the time that she thinks she's ugly when I think she looks amazing, but I'm so horrible at articulating my thoughts and can't give her like "concrete proof" that she ends up dismissing me and has admitted to tuning me out sometimes when I try.
Right before I left the room after having another conversation like this that ended in nothing she said "when I come back I'm either gonna look at you to see if you've come up with something better to say, which you won't cause there's nothing you could say that would help me, or I'll just have to pretend that everything is okay again. Just wanted to say that"
Feels horrible that one of the few reasons I'm still around is basically for nothing since I don't do shit for her emotionally, at most I just provide financial support (and that's fucking abysmal cause I work at a fast food place)
Right before I left the room after having another conversation like this that ended in nothing she said "when I come back I'm either gonna look at you to see if you've come up with something better to say, which you won't cause there's nothing you could say that would help me, or I'll just have to pretend that everything is okay again. Just wanted to say that"
Feels horrible that one of the few reasons I'm still around is basically for nothing since I don't do shit for her emotionally, at most I just provide financial support (and that's fucking abysmal cause I work at a fast food place)