imsorrythatimhere
They/He
- Jan 18, 2021
- 86
I can't handle living at all. One little thing doesn't go my way and I stay in my room and cry and think about dying. My parents yell at me? Great, might as well pull the trigger if I had a gun. My mom constantly says that I don't have any real problems and that I'll never be able to handle the real world if I'm like this right now inside. And guess what? She's fucking right and I hate that so much, that I just can't handle anything and that I'm too weak and all and that there is really nothing that makes me happy anymore.
I also don't have anyone to talk to anymore. By which I mean people who won't give me empty platitudes. I used to have good friends who could I relate to but half of them have cut me off because of how downright terrible of a person I was to them. The other half are now busy, and simply don't care after we've all sort of fallen apart, to which I can't fault them for because everyone really has changed. And everyday it hits me, that I'm so fucking lonely, that the people who I have left don't care and just tell me to get therapy. Every-time I think I've accepted it, and yet later I realize it again and I feel so surprised and just drained.
I don't have a good way of dying either, not for the foreseeable future. I just can't see how I'm going to survive in the meantime. (Not that I have a choice).
anyways yeah, thanks for reading
I also don't have anyone to talk to anymore. By which I mean people who won't give me empty platitudes. I used to have good friends who could I relate to but half of them have cut me off because of how downright terrible of a person I was to them. The other half are now busy, and simply don't care after we've all sort of fallen apart, to which I can't fault them for because everyone really has changed. And everyday it hits me, that I'm so fucking lonely, that the people who I have left don't care and just tell me to get therapy. Every-time I think I've accepted it, and yet later I realize it again and I feel so surprised and just drained.
I don't have a good way of dying either, not for the foreseeable future. I just can't see how I'm going to survive in the meantime. (Not that I have a choice).
anyways yeah, thanks for reading