Maybe you might want to take it easy then, you seem to be very anxious and I think if you try anything right now your survival instinct might be too strong and you might fuck it up.
I'd say see a counsellor or something just in case they can help you and if that fails, find a coping mechanism for your stress so it doesn't fuck up your attempt and then a good method
Good luck x
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RaphtaliaTwoAnimals, 21Neberg and Final Escape
I'm in the same boat as you. I decided to go see a therapist for other reasons too, and she told me that everyone has fears. Thanks.
Anyways, I'm probably going to get meds from her. If they work, it's something I could recommend to you too. But I think they're going to give me antidepressants, and I don't know if they do anything to help with anxiety.
I've confined myself for nearly half a year now. Summer was hell. haven't seen anyone but my parents in a really long time. It's one of the things that's driven me insane. I am too different from who I was to want to show this sick person to anyone. Hopefully will get the courage to CTB before this year is out, preferably before this month is over. I can't fathom entering 2020 being like this..
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LonelyLight, Kassender, Hotsackage and 1 other person
Me too. I shower, get dressed, take my backpack and everything, then I walk to the door and stand there for a minute or two...Then I just undress, put everything down and go back to my room. I havent left the house in weeks except for a few short walks around the block with my dad.
I just moved to a new place (renting) and theres two old people living right next door, theyre always right outside doing something, their door is always open, i cant ever go out without seeing them and having to interact with them because our doors are like 1 feet apart. I now tend to wait until 10pm when theyre sleeping before i go out to buy food from the supermarket that closes at 11pm
I sort of understand this. I've had to motivate myself to leave my bed every day for a few years now and sometimes I just can't manage. Leaving the building doesn't happen unless I have commitments such as lectures or work and I always end up doing my shopping during those times, I never leave just to go buy things.
I look forward to the days when I don't even have to wake up to decide if I need to go out or not.
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