I can’t find a method I like. Too afraid I’ll mess up.

[Whiskey19]

Honestly just want something I can take and fall asleep peacefully. The sodium crap seems like it's not peaceful, could make you violently nauseous, and face turns black.

I could easily get a firearm, had many. But too afraid of bullet not piercing skull, or not dying right away and being in extreme pain or choking on my own blood for awhile before dying.

If I had a place to hang myself maybe I'd do it but I have nowhere to do it. Nowhere to put a rope around.

Any suggestions for drugs that would peacefully knock me out?

I thought about Nembutal but can't find it anywhere and I hear it's really hard to drink. Thought about buying some IV bags and running myself an IV on Nembutal if I could find it and fall asleep.

Any suggestions?

 

[yellowraincoat225]

I think sometimes you'll just have to face the pain, take the risk. Most people who ctb have to overcome survival instincts too.

I'm putting my hopes in sn because it sounds the most peaceful after the night-night method. If I can perfect the nn method, I'll use that.

Maybe you can look into the "gas" methods? Idk if they're in the suicide guide and idk the exact details, but something about mixing vinegar with baking soda(???) to produce a toxic gas that will knock you out. I personally hate anything to do with breathing because I have a phobia of suffocation so those methods don't seem peaceful at all, but you could check them out.

As for the gun, I read in the suicide guide that using a shotgun works best and there's a certain place to aim that will guarantee you won't survive.

 

[Death is my goal]

firearms is a great method, make sure you have the right gun and aim at the right spot and you're good

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also just wish to cease existing painlessly and never suffer ever again, it'd bring me so much peace and relief to have a death like falling into an permanent sleep and it just feels so cruel how I cannot just access that. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you are searching for.

 

[NegevChina]

Honestly just want something I can take and fall asleep peacefully. The sodium crap seems like it's not peaceful, could make you violently nauseous, and face turns black.

I could easily get a firearm, had many. But too afraid of bullet not piercing skull, or not dying right away and being in extreme pain or choking on my own blood for awhile before dying.

If I had a place to hang myself maybe I'd do it but I have nowhere to do it. Nowhere to put a rope around.

Any suggestions for drugs that would peacefully knock me out?

I thought about Nembutal but can't find it anywhere and I hear it's really hard to drink. Thought about buying some IV bags and running myself an IV on Nembutal if I could find it and fall asleep.

Any suggestions?

I guess were all in the same boat here. Finding a method and overcoming SI, reduce survival chances. I'm considering a few methods my self. Got to make my mind and go for it before things get much much worse.

 

[sizzle440]

Honestly just want something I can take and fall asleep peacefully. The sodium crap seems like it's not peaceful, could make you violently nauseous, and face turns black.

I could easily get a firearm, had many. But too afraid of bullet not piercing skull, or not dying right away and being in extreme pain or choking on my own blood for awhile before dying.

If I had a place to hang myself maybe I'd do it but I have nowhere to do it. Nowhere to put a rope around.

Any suggestions for drugs that would peacefully knock me out?

I thought about Nembutal but can't find it anywhere and I hear it's really hard to drink. Thought about buying some IV bags and running myself an IV on Nembutal if I could find it and fall asleep.

Any suggestions?

Been running through the same scenarios for weeks. Decided on fent OD. All reports of those revived say totally painless. Just fall asleep in a warm blanket. Don't see how I can mess up if I take enough and am not found for at least several hours. Hotel for a couple nights should do it. Spent last few days learning DNM and finding supplier. In the process of obtaining proper crypto (can't buy the coin I need in NY). Will be placing order asap. Hoping all goes as planned. Difficult to think of the after effects for those few left behind who will suffer, but my mental illness has left me barely functional and in severe psychological pain. Why let them watch my life deteriorate further? The fent is surprisingly affordable. Going to hide a stash somewhere just in case the first go round doesn't work. The thought of having it is the only thing that brings me peace now. Going to hold on as long as I can, but having a guaranteed quick way out will be so nice.