If you don't wanna live anymore and wanna end your life but scare of sudden mine changing. Go full suspension (hanging). You won't have second chance and it's a guaranteed lethal.
If deep inside you don't wanna die, then live it. This is life, face the problem and stop complaining. The world is cruel and we have to adapt it. We can't do anything. Either you stay strong or die
I choose to die, and that's why I'm still trying to suicide every single day.
This comment isn't asking you to die, I am just giving you my thought. Either you face the problem now or die. Escaping problem isn't a way. Deal with it