Venting I can’t afford N

[cyanlove]

I have a part time job and I just got a raise so I now make $10.75/hr and I work about 18 hours a week. I want to be able to buy N and a hotel room to CTB. My original plan was to use essen but I'm afraid that I'd mess it up. N seemed much more straightforward to me.

I'm also extremely impulsive and usually don't have any money left by the time my next paycheck comes around. I wish I was better with money.

 

[CassieHoward]

Have you considered something like SN? I realize it's not as surefire as something like N but it is infinitely cheaper.

 

[cyanlove]

Have you considered something like SN? I realize it's not as surefire as something like N but it is infinitely cheaper.

Yeah. It was my original plan but after hearing about all the ways it could go wrong I got scared. I've never been good at measuring things out and everyone always writes things in grams and the metric system and I don't understand it.

 

[CassieHoward]

Yeah. It was my original plan but after hearing about all the ways it could go wrong I got scared. I've never been good at measuring things out and everyone always writes things in grams and the metric system and I don't understand it.

That's fair. It's definitely not as difficult as it sounds, but I can relate to wanting to have just one absolute method with virtually no room for error.

Regardless what happens, I hope you're able to find your peace.

 

[sealbabies]

I can't afford N either, but SN is still pretty good.
Mostly seems people survive because their SI kicks in and they don't go through with it, or someone finds them and they end up getting hospital care.
Ofc getting measurements down is important, but 20-25g in 50ml of water is not too complicated.
Other medications are already in the metric system I believe.

 

[houseofleaves]

Yeah. It was my original plan but after hearing about all the ways it could go wrong I got scared.

what could go wrong? you could just vomit, and that's all, right?

 

[I need peace]

Do you have a credit score? You could take a loan, say it's for education or something like that, idk how it works where you live. But if the decision is 100% you could just take a loan since you won't be there to pay

 

[Of The Universe]

what could go wrong? you could just vomit, and that's all, right?

That's exactly what I say when I ask a girl on a date.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. N is also my ideal way to leave this world, all I want is to pass away peacefully. If I had that option it would be very comforting. I also have a fear of failing ctb. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[lostmylove]

See if you're able to get a credit card or a personal loan . I just got approved for a platinum Amex platinum today. Didn't think I'd meet criteria. Think up a reason if major banks don't work. Try smaller ones. 2000 dollars should be plenty

 

[cyanlove]

Do you have a credit score? You could take a loan, say it's for education or something like that, idk how it works where you live. But if the decision is 100% you could just take a loan since you won't be there to pay

See if you're able to get a credit card or a personal loan . I just got approved for a platinum Amex platinum today. Didn't think I'd meet criteria. Think up a reason if major banks don't work. Try smaller ones. 2000 dollars should be plenty

These are good ideas!! I'll go ahead and try this soon.

 

[Cra87]

Expensive