I don't want to live and no one can convince me there is some objective reason that i have to live another minute or that any sentient animal has to or to want to live or do anything at all. There is no reason to live but there is much more . i don't have the words to describe how much i hate living / existing .
i see that many i guess do think they want to live :
to want to live you'd have to believe that there is some objective reason or that the crap meaningless addictions are worth all the daily labor, stress , suffering , humiliations, hassles , headaches , worry , injustice , things going wrong, etc.
and that the crap meaningless addictions are worth living which means all that and this :
having to work every day for 15 hours per day working a job , chores , suffering , trying to solve problems , cleaning every damn thing, having to eat 3 time a day, groceries , to do lists, suffering , stress, problems .... every damn day ... then get up shower brush teeth and do it again and again every day for 90 years. .
work all day a job ,to do lists, chores for 15 hours per day every day for 90 years for what reason? there is no objective reason
Life is not worth going or risking the many horrible things diseases,old age, oppression, injustice , grief, depression, disabling accidents, stroke, cancer, extreme suffering, heartbreak , unbearable pain, kidnapping torture, , tape worm infection, tick bytes, lyme, scams, lies, heartbreak and 1000 more .
Life is not worth the unbearable pain possible ..
always hungry having to work , suffer, every every for 90 years all the time risking extreme torture all for no objective reason.
life is just cells , a machine , piece of chemistry . there is no purpose.
no one can convince me there is an objective reason why i or any human has to live even another minute or to want to live or do anything . there is no objective reasons . life is meaningless suffering. life is an evil imposition prison torture slavery
but these and many more reasons why life is horrible are summed up on top of each other to make life a nightmare
the pleasurable addictions are the most evil because it's these that keep one here to fall for the worst torture and the worst pain imaginable . a fucking sandwhich or a fucking youtube video are not worth anything much less going through extreme torture or even all this suffering and slavery. these addictions are just bait
life is evil . life has tortured a thousand trillion sentient animals for 500 million years. most animals died by being eaten alive by other animals, parasites or bacteria . loot at all the horrible evil things in this world. who would want to be a part of this evil ? are they blind or heavily programmed since birth ? i'd say the latter
I don't have any mental illness
Is it rational and logical for me to question why am I working so hard so many hours for what reason? There is no objective reason.
I don't want to do anything . I prefer non-existence . This is rational not mental illness .
Is it logical to want to work 15 hours a day doing chores, trying to fix problems, having to eat 3 times A day , working a job and commuting, to do lists, cleaning everything etc... Every day . This is every day and for no objective reasons for 90 years, all the time risking extreme torture
Only in non-existence can guarantee never any pain , suffering, problems, bad memories
Instead they tell me I'm insane for not wanting to be a slave prisoner working so hard risking extreme torture for no reason. Trying to beg and cope and humiliate myself to all this evil for no reason
I reject all of existence logically.
With my suicide I can solve all my problems instantly and forever. How is that not rational and a sign of mental illness?