onbekend

onbekend

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Jan 14, 2024
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I don't know how to describe this feeling I have. I've just gotten employed and I'm working my first job, It's pretty basic and the pay isn't great but I don't really care about that since all I'm really there for is to get money for CTB resources (At this point, I have more than enough saved up). When I do anything physically, I can do it with ease no problem. Where I struggle with is everything else.

It's a swirling mix of emotions and impulses, pulling at me. Making me unable to perform actions in ways that I can't describe. I take too much into consideration to the point where I can't get anything done if it involves using my head. It's to the point where I can hardly write - I've written so many drafts of this thread (and many others) so many times over the past couple months, and this is the reason why It's taken so long to actually post it.
 
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