I can get a loan of 15k to a last blowout

[Eternal Oblivion]

32 male. Brazilian.

I've been suicidal for a while and life isn't getting any better. I missed my chance with D inspite of have depositing him the money (WU returned my deposit under suspicion transaction, can you believe that?) I have a loot of digestive problems and that's my main reason.

I work and I'm able to get an loan of aprox $ 15k (that's 60k brazilian money), at any time, using my phone. I have a passport. I have nothing to hold me back (no kids) and I don't really like my parents so I'll just leave them a note for closer but I don't feel guilty about it.

I was thinking of travelling to mexico and findind N. Once I have it, I'd spend the rest of the money having fun before it ends.

DO you think it would be difficult to find N being in Mexico? Also, does this seens like a good idea or I'm being stupid? That thought ocurred once I started to plan going by rope and that idea isn't appealing at all.

Like to hear your thoughts.

 

[DeepDespair101]

For your first question, you can try veterinarians in border cities in Mexico. That's at least where I've read people having the most luck (although not recently). Speaking Spanish is going to make it a whole lot easier also.

For your second question, I did something similar prior to my attempt in November although not to that scale. I spent maybe 5k or so buying shit I wanted, doing what I wanted, and a ton of drugs. It made living a lot more bearable so take that however you like. Just know if your attempt fails you're gonna be on the hook for that debt.

 

[Eternal Oblivion]

For your first question, you can try veterinarians in border cities in Mexico. That's at least where I've read people having the most luck (although not recently). Speaking Spanish is going to make it a whole lot easier also.

For your second question, I did something similar prior to my attempt in November although not to that scale. I spent maybe 5k or so buying shit I wanted, doing what I wanted, and a ton of drugs. It made living a lot more bearable so take that however you like. Just know if your attempt fails you're gonna be on the hook for that debt.

Thanks for your aswner. For the debt part, it doesn't really matter. In Brazil you can't get arrested for it and I just own a car I'd pass on prior to it. I guess I got a bit to research as for getting N in Mexico, and yeah, I only speak english and portuguese.

 

[DeepDespair101]

South and Central Americas have some countries you might be able to get N in as well. It's just difficult to get N in general right now bc of the shortage. You'll def be able to find some other lethal substances pretty readily in Mexico tho. Tijuana comes to mind.

 

[yyytry]

I hear that you can also find it in Bolivia. They are relaxed about selling it there (like how Mexico is).

I've heard they don't really ask questions in Mexico though, it's pretty easy to use google translate to help you say what you need for requesting at the vet. They almost never turn away cash, lol.