moya117
A replacement that can easily get replaced
- Mar 31, 2023
- 95
(excuse my poor English, I'm sorry it is that bad)
For my mom and my little sister, i really should just suck it all up.
My mom is one of the person that makes me the way I am. Yeah, she's not a good person but she's trying to be Better now, although I do love her and I would totally kill and die for her, it's just not the same anymore.
My sister... If I leave her, I'm afraid that her classmates start bullying her again and I don't want that to happen.
Both of them love me, but I still don't feel truly loved, why? Because they don't know the full me yet, me that is panromantic, me that is agnostic (ik they'll reject me after knowing all that)
My boyfriend that's keeping me alive rn, idk about him, he blatantly said that he doesn't love me and still unsure, he thought about cheating with another. It's just not fair how I love him to the point that it hurts but he's just staying here feeling unsure about our relationship.
No one, no one loves me anymore,I truly don't have anyone right now. Why, I really do tried my best but it's still not enough.
I tried meds, I tried self therapy (BCS I can't afford the professional ones) and it doesn't fucking work, the pills just makes me either have a high energy (which is rare) or just makes me feel numb but not In a good way, I still feel miserable and all that but the only difference is that It's Soo hard to explain and express what I feel.
I badly need friends, or someone that I can talk to
For my mom and my little sister, i really should just suck it all up.
My mom is one of the person that makes me the way I am. Yeah, she's not a good person but she's trying to be Better now, although I do love her and I would totally kill and die for her, it's just not the same anymore.
My sister... If I leave her, I'm afraid that her classmates start bullying her again and I don't want that to happen.
Both of them love me, but I still don't feel truly loved, why? Because they don't know the full me yet, me that is panromantic, me that is agnostic (ik they'll reject me after knowing all that)
My boyfriend that's keeping me alive rn, idk about him, he blatantly said that he doesn't love me and still unsure, he thought about cheating with another. It's just not fair how I love him to the point that it hurts but he's just staying here feeling unsure about our relationship.
No one, no one loves me anymore,I truly don't have anyone right now. Why, I really do tried my best but it's still not enough.
I tried meds, I tried self therapy (BCS I can't afford the professional ones) and it doesn't fucking work, the pills just makes me either have a high energy (which is rare) or just makes me feel numb but not In a good way, I still feel miserable and all that but the only difference is that It's Soo hard to explain and express what I feel.
I badly need friends, or someone that I can talk to
