Sorry you're suffering so much. I'm with you on that, I wish assisted dying was legal everywhere. We're in the dark ages when it comes to that. Even nature gets it right. Diseased/weak animals don't languish endlessly, they get killed by prey and their suffering is over. Even diseased dolphins beach themselves. We euthanise our pets. But noooooo, humans are expected to stay alive and suffer suffer suffer.
What is SH?
Those animals are lucky. And if anyone sees an animal in pain, they just put it down. You're so right. Abbreviated for self harm. Idk if that's an actual abbreviation or if I made it up
I feel the same way. I have no way to move forward, yet I can't seem to take that last step. I've basically run my life into the ground like a plane crash and I still can't do it. I've also tried many times and I keep making the choice to live and I am so upset with myself for hanging to the side of a cliff for so long with no hope. I keep telling myself to let go, I keep wishing for my life to end each night yet I still wake up every morning again and again. I see people have passed away unfairly and in terrible circumstances they did not expect and I would do anything to be able to volunteer myself in their place, the world is not fair. Those who want to live have such tragic ends and those of us who wish to die keep surviving. This must be a kind of hell we are stuck in.
Wow. This is written really well and I completely agree. So many people die in tragedies at the peak of their lives...just graduated high school, just got married, new mom, etc. It seems like every article about someone's unexpected death describes them as "in love with life" and extremely successful. Why not let them live and take me instead??
I also go to bed every night hoping to die in my sleep/not see the sunlight but I always do..
I agree with what you said except that I think most wild animals die badly, not peacefully or necessarily quickly, so I don't envy them. Here's a worrying quote from prominent biologist Richard Dawkins taken from the Wiki page on 'Wild Animal Suffering':
"The total amount of suffering per year in the natural world is beyond all decent contemplation. During the minute that it takes me to compose this sentence, thousands of animals are being eaten alive, many others are running for their lives, whimpering with fear, others are slowly being devoured from within by rasping parasites, thousands of all kinds are dying of starvation, thirst, and disease. It must be so. If there ever is a time of plenty, this very fact will automatically lead to an increase in the population until the natural state of starvation and misery is restored."
Yeah, that's pretty grim. Except some of them aren't as self aware as humans. I'm jealous that some species just run on biological instinct and don't really know what they are and aren't aware of life/death.
It's a true nightmare, I can't see how to ever justify it.
It really is absurd that we afford pets that mercy but not our own kind.
It is a freaking nightmare. Let me paint a picture for you: my mental illness makes it so that I don't have a distinct personality. My view of myself and beliefs are ever changing. I feel chronically empty and suicidal. No pills or therapy help. And that is just one of my many diagnoses. I wrecked my body due to my eating disorder have irreversible symptoms. I've shrunk in height, I never finished puberty, my bone density is low, my metabolism is fucked and holds onto fat, I have migraines and vertigo, hypoglycemia...three years ago my organs were beginning to shut down. It seemed like a perfect ending, but nooo, instead they put my through treatment and left me to suffer up until now. Would've been more ethical to put me down then.
They want us to shoot ourselves maybe due to the gun lobby? So they sell more guns. It wouldn't surprise me.
What is the gun lobby?
There really are several available painless or as close to as one can wish to get to being painless methods.
Inert gas and CO come to mind and deserve respect. SN...
With assisted suicide the uncertainty and doubt would be largely eliminated, much of the fear. I wish it was legal everywhere.
I have no clue where to get that stuff. I live with my parents and am incredibly anxious...too anxious to even try to use a "painless" method. :(
They want us to consume, pay taxes, make more good little consumers and tax payers.
And isn't it fucked that we literally created money and capitalism. We live on a fucking floating rock in space that will cease to exist at some point. The whole universe will eventually die...yet our lives revolve around money.
