Help I am still alive. Couldn't do it

[silvermoon]

Sorry friends, i didn't consider your suggestions. Throat cutting is really a bad idea. Now i know why people don't consider it. My parents didn't came back. I was alone with brother. He was sleeping peacefully. The moment i put knife on my throat it felt really hard to cut myself. I don't have any intention to live or any kind of second thoughts. Still i couldn't do it. I think i need to buy the rope. Is SN method costly? Can anybody explain me SN method.

 

[jgm63]

It would be a good idea to take a look at Stan's guide :

Spoiler: sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method.25148

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Good thing. Your original method would have been brutal, very messy and probably more traumatic for whomever discovered you. That said, I wish you luck in whatever you choose for the future. Much love.❤

 

[Ghost2211]

Glad you're still with us, and really glad you didn't cut your thought. It's hard to do right, and you're more likely to end up in a psych ward with a nasty scar.

 

[rntmss]

Cutting methods are really tough. I find the survival instinct really kicks in as soon as you start pushing things into your skin. I can never get more than a couple mm into my skin before pulling a sharp object out of the site.

Remember that you're not a failure for not being able to do it. As much as you want to CTB, remember that your basic human instincts don't want to.

 

[reapandsow918]

Do SN. I recommend it. Just need an antiemetic (anti nausea medication) and the SN the rest is extra. The hardest part is getting the anti nausea medication so you won't throw up the SN.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Silvermoon-

I'm glad to see you back with us. I'm glad you weren't able to hurt yourself in that way.

Look for Stan's guide to SN. He will guide you across the divide.

Wishing you love and light.

 

[DrummerWhoLovesMilk]

Offing yourself in that way is not for the lighthearted. Glad you reconsidered. Hope you find peace someway/somehow.

 

[Broken Chimera]

I'm glad you changed your mind. Like others here said SN is much better if you still want to do it.

 

[Nelos]

SN is much better, good to hear you have not went through with that method. I know I wouldn't it would be very painful. Whatever happens I wish you peace anon.

 

[S1mpleme]

I knew it, SI is not easy to overcome, especially with such methods. SN is pretty cheap, just a salt you need to drink, then you will lose consciousness and die. It all depends on circumstances of course, if you need more info then do some research, there is enough posts about it.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

So glad you didn't try this method as others have explained. I just wanted to tell you that you aren't alone. I also had a knife to my throat when I was a teen.
I couldn't do it either. I doubt that I would have been successful if I had tried.
As jgm63 mentioned … Stan's Guide to SN (Highly Recommended)

Also there is a Resource Section

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/resource-compilation.3/

 

[Jean Améry]

I'm glad you didn't go through with the cutting as it's a truly awful way to go.

 

[Soul]

Good move, @silvermoon! Whatever you decide to do next, I hope things start going well for you. Be good to yourself. x

 

[Lostandfound7]

So happy to hear that ur still home with us @silvermoon ..

 

[Xebsora29]

Sorry friends, i didn't consider your suggestions. Throat cutting is really a bad idea. Now i know why people don't consider it. My parents didn't came back. I was alone with brother. He was sleeping peacefully. The moment i put knife on my throat it felt really hard to cut myself. I don't have any intention to live or any kind of second thoughts. Still i couldn't do it. I think i need to buy the rope. Is SN method costly? Can anybody explain me SN method.

Glad you're still here. If you need to talk, im here for you.