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Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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I am 27 and it makes me cry so much that I have never been genuinely wanted by a man like other women get have. All my life I have been the girl who never ever gets picked and every time a guy shows interest in me it's because he has split up with his girlfriend and needs someone to pass the time with. I have always been the rebound girl and feel incomplete as a woman because of it. Why am I always a magnet for men whose relationships have broken down and then leave once they get back with ex. I give all this love and care only for the men to discard me once they reunite with their ex girlfriend.
When I was 15 I feel in love with this boy in the Cadet club I belonged too. He was a bad boy who was getting into trouble . We were good friends and when he split up with his girlfriend who was also in cadets he got with me and we shared a kiss. When he got back with her he coldy told me I was a "mistake". Worst of all when it came out what he did with me he denied everything and painted me as crazy and liar. Some girls in cadets believed me because he did the same to them others in the club believed him and sided with him. In adulthood I have experienced the same too.
When I was at university in my second year I met a guy on campus. He was in final year and studied philosophy. We got so well because we are talking about politics and the fact I gave a MP a hard time during a Q&A session at the university hall when the MP came to vist the University. This guy gave me his number and we began talking. I asked him out to go for drink in the local cafe in university town. We were both messaging each other regularly and then at last minute he cancels our plans because he told me he still has " feelings for his ex"
The last man I met he was in his f*cking 50s. He made me feel so special in a way no man has ever done it was wonderful having a man give me all this attention and helping me with whatever I needed. I really thought he liked me I then worked out he stopped giving me attention and distancing himself from me because he got back together with his 55 year old on and off girlfriend. They have been on and off for over 20 f*cking years. He has permanently messed up my head in so many ways ( another long story) with his constant lying, mind games, gaslighting. He has a caused me so pain and made me feel worthless and scared to go near another man. This arsehole is one of the reasons why I struggle a lot mentally.
I loved him so much and all I ever was good to him but he just had no care for my feelings and he painted me to be crazy and himself the good guy to our boss and our colleagues at work.
I am so sick and tired of being rebound girl. I actually hate couples who are on and off and get with other people as a filler then reunite with their ex. I f*cking hate couples because they don't care about other people's feelings. I wish these arseholes sort out their own sh*t before getting involved with innocent people because we the rebounds we get hurt and have this pain.
When I was 15 I feel in love with this boy in the Cadet club I belonged too. He was a bad boy who was getting into trouble . We were good friends and when he split up with his girlfriend who was also in cadets he got with me and we shared a kiss. When he got back with her he coldy told me I was a "mistake". Worst of all when it came out what he did with me he denied everything and painted me as crazy and liar. Some girls in cadets believed me because he did the same to them others in the club believed him and sided with him. In adulthood I have experienced the same too.
When I was at university in my second year I met a guy on campus. He was in final year and studied philosophy. We got so well because we are talking about politics and the fact I gave a MP a hard time during a Q&A session at the university hall when the MP came to vist the University. This guy gave me his number and we began talking. I asked him out to go for drink in the local cafe in university town. We were both messaging each other regularly and then at last minute he cancels our plans because he told me he still has " feelings for his ex"
The last man I met he was in his f*cking 50s. He made me feel so special in a way no man has ever done it was wonderful having a man give me all this attention and helping me with whatever I needed. I really thought he liked me I then worked out he stopped giving me attention and distancing himself from me because he got back together with his 55 year old on and off girlfriend. They have been on and off for over 20 f*cking years. He has permanently messed up my head in so many ways ( another long story) with his constant lying, mind games, gaslighting. He has a caused me so pain and made me feel worthless and scared to go near another man. This arsehole is one of the reasons why I struggle a lot mentally.
I loved him so much and all I ever was good to him but he just had no care for my feelings and he painted me to be crazy and himself the good guy to our boss and our colleagues at work.
I am so sick and tired of being rebound girl. I actually hate couples who are on and off and get with other people as a filler then reunite with their ex. I f*cking hate couples because they don't care about other people's feelings. I wish these arseholes sort out their own sh*t before getting involved with innocent people because we the rebounds we get hurt and have this pain.
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