Hollowillow
The only place that allows negative feelings.
- Aug 7, 2022
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I thought I made a new friend she wanted to help. I didn't even mention suicide I only said that I'm having allergic reaction to something in my home. She has contacts with people in politics so I was hoping that she could improve services by the office municipal of habitation. I told her to not tell the cops when she proposed to go to the hospital because they said that I deserve to be beaten when I was covered in blood and was terrified of them. But she did anyway and they abused me once again. One said that is worried that I'm allowed to vote implying that I don't have human rights because I'm too insane. But I got hit by a car sexually abused beaten I'm dizzy from malnutrition and an allergic reaction. But it treated me like I was just some serial killer psychotic. I have a high high IQ and high lucidity because I don't take any drug. The people who are less fortunate than me must be so mistreated.
He told my friend on the phone to block me because I'm just insane and I'm going to abuse her. Is shame me saying that I will make her sick. That she can't say no and that I have abused that. That I just cling on people and this week it's our turn and she should block me.
So did denied me friends and human rights. They said that I don't deserve help that I'm the one who abuse. I've never felt so invalidated and humiliated. When they came I was talking to somebody on the phone who can help me but they interrupted us. When I called the suicide that line they tell me that all they can do is call the cops they don't even listen. And the cops call them. So I just I'm thrown away in a loop to never have any help. People don't listen to my needs and don't respect my limits they try to impose what they will like for their own sake. I told them that I went to the hospital several times but they refuse to help me even when i bleed. they refuse to keep me in psychiatry. I said that it will not help me and I can't afford to pay $50 for a taxi because I'm too sick to take the bus to go back home. The cups reply that it will make him happy to take me there anyway even knowing that it won't help and that it will hurt me. He wanted to hurt me.
After they left I finally there to try my new rope and installed it on my door do you think it would work out
It's a climbing rope from the dollar store, it's elastic and bounces. Is it useless? The satin belt around the door handle failed me but I was sitting on the floor & put it high on my neck before reading that low is better, is it?
I really regret that I didn't buy SN from IC earlier because now they request an ID and I'm waiting. I'm probably going to be rejected again like I'm rejected by everybody. So I guess that I'm screwed. Can you PM me other sources of SN for Canada?
I wish I had someone kind help me go out. Someone who care and who's not going to call me abusive if I just need a hug and some food. I already need to die I can take it anymore please don't believe me please don't send me hate mail anymore
My brain is so burned out by the poison and car accident and mental torture I can't write anymore. I have to use a voice converter.
I complained that my social worker was not doing her job. Her boss told me to just go away and ask somebody who is not equipped to do that kind of job at all and is even crueller. I have very simple things to help me get an appointment and a service that bring foods to the disabled and it takes months and they do nothing. When I call myself to get an appointment I realized that they were trying to give me one since a month I could have helped before but instead to help the person got in the way and made me miss my chance. The cops were so cruel telling me that I don't deserve friends trying to convince my friend to never speak to me again. I had enough. Even if I get a safe home without the allergy to the chemical in it even if I was to magically cure my disabilities. The cruelty of this world will never change. I haven't saw people be cruel here to people who just survive and suicide attempt, in shock, called them liars, fear mongers pro lifers. Instead to have compassion for a trauma. I'm scared to even come online. But I have nothing else than this place and some people are really good here. But there is no way to escape human nature completely. People are cruel when they're scared and people are sadistic when they're in power.
Wish wish I could live watch anime visit Japan play boards games. I wish I could heal. But the people we can help would rather torture me blame me and validate my very human rights take away the little friends that I have.
She send the cops to help me but instead they literally destroy your friendship they didn't annoys me tell me that I don't even have the right to vote. That they will be happy if I'm hurt in the hospital. They justified the abuse to justify more abuse. I scream in distress because they were hurting me and they justified hurting me saying that it's because I'm screaming but I was not screaming before they arrived. It's like someone who stabs you and then blame you for the blood. I went out.
I want to die. I'm not able to understand all the other drugs. Can I try SM without anything else. I don't even have a measuring cup for it or water how am I supposed to do it. I can go out to buy it. Are there drugs that are necessary for its success or is it only to make it less painful. I heard that anti acid said are no longer necessary and the heart medication is supposed to stop the body from healing itself. Which drug do I have absolutely need to make SN work?
Can someone be my mentor by p.m. and explain to me step by step how to get stuff as if I was a retarded child
I still wish even now that I could live. I want to take a walk in the forest and admire the Autumn leaves. But I can't walk. The cops made me burn all my energy, assaulting me with psychological violence and threats to drag me by force out of my home into a place that hurt me.
They're the one who made me suicidal. I wish I could complain but it's useless even if I call for help I just get more abused.
Please don't bully me please help me die.
Please wish me to not be banned from IC too please help me find SN or another way to die
I am Beyond terrified. I just wanted friends and help to live. If anybody think that I'm at fear-monger pro life liar let me know I will show you my photo full of blood the torture that pro-lifers did to me I will show you that I'm a victim of abuse not the abuser. But if even the cops thinks I am then I have absolutely no hope to be believed. So please just help me freaking die. Thank you. How long did it take for you to get approved by IC after sending your photo? What did you say to convince them? What can I do if they refuse me. Sorry to speak too much it's chaos in my mind. I want to scream my head hurts so much. I've been tortured again. I've been told I don't deserve friends or help or even to vote.
If my fate is just to be a punching bag to be tortured then I really need to hurry up and die...
I can't even cry because it's so acid fumes in my home so I acid in my body, my tears are a too acid to cry. It hurts to even cry. Or breathe. Or think...
Wish wish I could get killed instead of torture.
I can't handle or keep up with alerts. If you have solutions please pm me.
He told my friend on the phone to block me because I'm just insane and I'm going to abuse her. Is shame me saying that I will make her sick. That she can't say no and that I have abused that. That I just cling on people and this week it's our turn and she should block me.
So did denied me friends and human rights. They said that I don't deserve help that I'm the one who abuse. I've never felt so invalidated and humiliated. When they came I was talking to somebody on the phone who can help me but they interrupted us. When I called the suicide that line they tell me that all they can do is call the cops they don't even listen. And the cops call them. So I just I'm thrown away in a loop to never have any help. People don't listen to my needs and don't respect my limits they try to impose what they will like for their own sake. I told them that I went to the hospital several times but they refuse to help me even when i bleed. they refuse to keep me in psychiatry. I said that it will not help me and I can't afford to pay $50 for a taxi because I'm too sick to take the bus to go back home. The cups reply that it will make him happy to take me there anyway even knowing that it won't help and that it will hurt me. He wanted to hurt me.
After they left I finally there to try my new rope and installed it on my door do you think it would work out
It's a climbing rope from the dollar store, it's elastic and bounces. Is it useless? The satin belt around the door handle failed me but I was sitting on the floor & put it high on my neck before reading that low is better, is it?
I really regret that I didn't buy SN from IC earlier because now they request an ID and I'm waiting. I'm probably going to be rejected again like I'm rejected by everybody. So I guess that I'm screwed. Can you PM me other sources of SN for Canada?
I wish I had someone kind help me go out. Someone who care and who's not going to call me abusive if I just need a hug and some food. I already need to die I can take it anymore please don't believe me please don't send me hate mail anymore
My brain is so burned out by the poison and car accident and mental torture I can't write anymore. I have to use a voice converter.
I complained that my social worker was not doing her job. Her boss told me to just go away and ask somebody who is not equipped to do that kind of job at all and is even crueller. I have very simple things to help me get an appointment and a service that bring foods to the disabled and it takes months and they do nothing. When I call myself to get an appointment I realized that they were trying to give me one since a month I could have helped before but instead to help the person got in the way and made me miss my chance. The cops were so cruel telling me that I don't deserve friends trying to convince my friend to never speak to me again. I had enough. Even if I get a safe home without the allergy to the chemical in it even if I was to magically cure my disabilities. The cruelty of this world will never change. I haven't saw people be cruel here to people who just survive and suicide attempt, in shock, called them liars, fear mongers pro lifers. Instead to have compassion for a trauma. I'm scared to even come online. But I have nothing else than this place and some people are really good here. But there is no way to escape human nature completely. People are cruel when they're scared and people are sadistic when they're in power.
Wish wish I could live watch anime visit Japan play boards games. I wish I could heal. But the people we can help would rather torture me blame me and validate my very human rights take away the little friends that I have.
She send the cops to help me but instead they literally destroy your friendship they didn't annoys me tell me that I don't even have the right to vote. That they will be happy if I'm hurt in the hospital. They justified the abuse to justify more abuse. I scream in distress because they were hurting me and they justified hurting me saying that it's because I'm screaming but I was not screaming before they arrived. It's like someone who stabs you and then blame you for the blood. I went out.
I want to die. I'm not able to understand all the other drugs. Can I try SM without anything else. I don't even have a measuring cup for it or water how am I supposed to do it. I can go out to buy it. Are there drugs that are necessary for its success or is it only to make it less painful. I heard that anti acid said are no longer necessary and the heart medication is supposed to stop the body from healing itself. Which drug do I have absolutely need to make SN work?
Can someone be my mentor by p.m. and explain to me step by step how to get stuff as if I was a retarded child
I still wish even now that I could live. I want to take a walk in the forest and admire the Autumn leaves. But I can't walk. The cops made me burn all my energy, assaulting me with psychological violence and threats to drag me by force out of my home into a place that hurt me.
They're the one who made me suicidal. I wish I could complain but it's useless even if I call for help I just get more abused.
Please don't bully me please help me die.
Please wish me to not be banned from IC too please help me find SN or another way to die
I am Beyond terrified. I just wanted friends and help to live. If anybody think that I'm at fear-monger pro life liar let me know I will show you my photo full of blood the torture that pro-lifers did to me I will show you that I'm a victim of abuse not the abuser. But if even the cops thinks I am then I have absolutely no hope to be believed. So please just help me freaking die. Thank you. How long did it take for you to get approved by IC after sending your photo? What did you say to convince them? What can I do if they refuse me. Sorry to speak too much it's chaos in my mind. I want to scream my head hurts so much. I've been tortured again. I've been told I don't deserve friends or help or even to vote.
If my fate is just to be a punching bag to be tortured then I really need to hurry up and die...
I can't even cry because it's so acid fumes in my home so I acid in my body, my tears are a too acid to cry. It hurts to even cry. Or breathe. Or think...
Wish wish I could get killed instead of torture.
I can't handle or keep up with alerts. If you have solutions please pm me.
